OK folks about six months ago I was reading a passage from the Pali Nikayas where the Buddha talks about different elements in the body, when I got to the part about the earth element I span out and saw that I didn't own my bones any more than I owned a rock in the garden, then I saw that we are like waves on the water - we rise peak and fall and amongst other stuff that everything was empty of inherent self. I experienced a rapture from this moment of true seeing beyond anything I ever experienced sober or not. It lasted for a few hours and then faded.
My question is why didn't this point of view stick - I'm still convinced that I have an I as such. It does help in the sense that when I want to give up Buddhism as too tough and go back to boozing and playing a lot of video games I remember the experience and say well you saw the truth in the Buddhas teaching so stick at it. I asked an experienced teacher about it online and his answer was basically just stick with the practice.
However if you have any thoughts or comments on why it didn't stick I'd appreciate them.