Looking at ground instead of breath
I hear psychotic (remember this is a brain disease) voices and have been meditating every day all day for five days. One thing I noticed is that often I am looking at the ground, grass, and counting the breath but I am not noting the breath. My curiosity is from experienced meditators to know how that will affect me. I know there are a lot of different meditations and I wondered how I am affected.
So since I am stable with visuals over these five days I wonder if I should just stick with that or should I make an effort to return to the breath. Some other meditations I have done is asking 'is this space mine?.. No it is not mine'. Body scans and metta which is scary because the voices have comments on my sending them metta, ah epiphany I should not do metta on the voices as much and instead on family and old aquaintences that are not represented in the voices in my head.