How can I apply Buddhism to my life?
Hi New Buddhist! I'm totally new here and trying to find a way to incorporate Buddhist teachings in my life. I've been an atheist for as long as I can remember but I've hit a point where I need something just to make me even wake up in the morning. Buddhism is the only thing that actually seems to make sense. I've spent hours online doing research and I really feel that it can help me however I feel like I'm overloaded with information and I'm not even sure where to start. I was told by my doctor that I was bi-polar about a year ago when I decided that I had had enough of my emotions running amok. I'm currently on two different pills to "even" me out. I decided to start going to a local Buddhist center near my house for more guidance.
You see, just recently I hit an all time low that made me want to seek out Buddhism. I've always been prone to depression and I really just want to know how Buddhist view depression and what I can do to help me not be depressed for once in my life. It gets so bad that all I want to do is to give up and just get life over with already. I'm only twenty :/
But I digress. What made me get so depressed recently was that I met this girl I really liked. We met through a friend while we were at a local amusement park. We started talking and I thought we really liked each other. Then we started holding hands on rollercoasters and eventually we just started holding hands as we walked through the park. I didn't think anything could have possibly gone wrong because I was so happy. But when I tried texting her she just ignored me. I eventually learned through my friend that she had a boyfriend the whole time. I felt like such a fool. The night I found out I totally broke down and all I could think about was offing myself. I know it sounds cliche'. But these things seem to happen to me constantly. I am so prone to getting my heartbroke that I don't even want to be happy anymore because I know I'll just be sad again soon after. Is it so wrong to want to be in a relationship? If it's not relationship troubles making me depressed then it's my work or even my classes in college. There's always something bringing me down.
So my question to you is, how do I apply Buddhism to my life so I'm not always so depressed?