I have found a way of living that brings me much peace within, thanks in large part to my study of the Dharma, practice of mediation, and a focus on mindfulness and compassion. These things have literally transformed my life over the past year or so. Before this, I believe that I always felt that I was in a state of constant turmoil. Actually, time I spent attending a Christian church also taught me some things about forgiveness, compassion, service and fellowship. But the effect has been that I deal with things much better now, and my relationships with others are much more harmonious.
But, there are people in my life, who have been in my life for quite a long time and who are very important to me, who look different to me now. And, they seem to look at me differently now. These people don't understand my preference for peaceful, quiet activities, or my love for a healthy helping of solitude. Rather, it seems to me that they feel I have gone off the radar, as in veered off from the course of good sense.
But, I look at them, and I see them striving so hard every day, as if they will reach some unattainable goal and everything will be okay. It seems that they are always enmeshed in competition and conflict. I want to reach out to them and tell them "there is a better way; you can feel better". But I know from the times I hinted at things like this, that they will regard that as just crazy talk, and it will make them worry more about me.
I suppose that perhaps they are wired somehow differently than I am. In the first place, what seems like competition and conflict was draining and disheartening to me. To them, perhaps it is thrilling and maybe meaningful. Second, maybe I am not giving them enough credit and they are happier than they look to me, because I am neglecting our differences. Does anyone else relate to this, or have anything to share that might help me sort this out?