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I have been conversing with an old friend of mine recently, a guy who was for a number of years probably my best friend, although we had a falling out before I came to Thailand and have only recently put everything behind us and started talking again.
To fill you in on our friendship, it was a very destructive one, we were out of every social group we were involved in the worst when it came to abusing substances. We would push each other and just take it to other levels. We would go out just the two of us most weekends and take 8-12 ecstasy pills each for around 3 years for example. We got up to some crazy stuff.
Anyway he ended up in Rehab once when I was in England and it failed, then he has been to another one where they actually taught meditation and life skills. He now has stopped all drugs and drinks once a week. he has even stopped smoking cigarettes. He used to smoke 40 a day, smoke weed every day all day and ended up in rehab mainly due to benzos. At his darkest period he would take around 300mg valium, 20mg clonazepam and 20mg xanax a day which is an awful lot.
Now what this thread is about is something that cropped up in conversation between us. As I said he has been taught meditation and it has helped him a lot by the sounds of things. He also has succumb to social anxiety like me but has managed to get out and do things. But we came across talk about this space, this void within us that seems as if it needs to be filled. Maybe with a job, a girlfriend, substances, what is this void? I am sure a lot of you know what I am referring to, has anybody ever observed and investigated this space at all? Does it need to be filled? Where does it come from do you think?