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Yesterday I dug out my old diary and found an interesting meditation session the Rev Young once conducted way back when that I'm going to try again for a few days. Perhaps you'd also like to give it a whirl.
Instead of sitting and focusing on the central Zen question, "What am I?" he asked that we put that question aside, and instead try asking "What's wrong with me?" for a while. Whatever you are, the motivation for sitting and struggling with the koans or quiet mind is that you're not satisfied with who you are. Before you can fix a problem, you have to be able to say what's gone wrong.
So ask yourself "What's wrong with me?" and do an honest diagnosis. Chew on the question. Approach it from different angles. What about you isn't so perfect right now that you see yourself as flawed? Don't even worry about how to fix it. How to fix it isn't the question. We'll assume the 8-fold path in some way is going to fix it.
You don't even have to share the answer. But, you might have some surprising conclusions at the end of the meditation. According to the diary, I did. It will be interesting to see if I come to the same answer this time around.
"What's wrong with me?" (inhale, exhale)