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I am fairly new to Buddhist, yet not new to Meditation and energy. I come from a very long and old line of healers, energy workers etc.. So I know when something happens I can't explain. Recently, about a year now, each time I meditate I get to the point where my mind goes blank, everything stops and suddenly it feels as if I'm falling into a deep pool. My breathing stops as well and I end up falling asleep later on. This has become a major issue since I started on my new life path that each time I meditate my breathing stops and once again I'm in water. Most of the times it's a deep pool, and other times it's the ocean and I'm sinking just to float up again and before I hit the surface I "wake up."
It is not a panic like feeling and the only way to explain it is falling into the deep end of the pool and everything is relaxing and you are just watching the water pass over you. When this happens it feels like my body is trying to find other ways to breath, and it feels like my current body is floating in water and trying to breathe through my skin. Like my skin is trying to open up and my body gets extremely light to the point when I finally get up and start walking from the meditation I am extremely dizzy and takes a while feel " right" again, like the proper weight. I still have that extreme light weight feeling like I can just float up from the water at any time.
The pool is always a clear yet deep aquamarine and always extremely deep, same with the ocean. There is no bottom and I never fall deep enough to even find out if I'm right or not. I'm always falling on my back ad always look the same, no different. Sometimes I'm looking up at the sun shinning down on me through the water and as I float back up the sun is coming down to meet me and other times it's the moon. I never panic, my skin is taking in water and acts as gills sort of, allowing me to breath in a way yet nothing is shown, no slits, just skin.
A bit of background about me. I'm the black sheep in my family. Everything they are I am the opposite. I therefore taught myself to the best of my ability and tried to stay true to what I knew of my culture. (mixed, mainly native, Italian and Irish/Scottish) this feeling only started after I tried to become true to myself and find my own way and just my own path basically. Embrace that which I am. All that I am.
Advice would help a lot on why I have this feeling, this drowning, and floating feeling. I am very new to Buddhism and am trying to learn as much as I can about it. I was always drawn to it and each time I looked for a sign or anything, Buddhism would pop up be it a picture on my timeline or an article I come across.