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Daily Meditation log...here
As some of you may recall from my previous postings, I do not have a teacher or a class since I have not found any close enough to me.
If it's ok, I would like to use this thread as my log if you will.
What I ask is if anyone has any answers or insight into some of my questions would you be kind enough to lend your advice/thoughts? It would really help me out. I have been reading "Mindfulnes, Bliss, and Beyond, and it's been a great help but there are some instances where I still have questions.
First one will be posted next.
And please, if you have anything, anything at all to add, feel free to make a comment or a statement, or even respond with a novel, I don't care.
I do not have anyone close to me who understands "why" I am meditating and (according to one friend) reading all these crazy books, so this forum is all I have for an outlet in regards to meditation.
Thank you
If it's ok, I would like to use this thread as my log if you will.
What I ask is if anyone has any answers or insight into some of my questions would you be kind enough to lend your advice/thoughts? It would really help me out. I have been reading "Mindfulnes, Bliss, and Beyond, and it's been a great help but there are some instances where I still have questions.
First one will be posted next.
And please, if you have anything, anything at all to add, feel free to make a comment or a statement, or even respond with a novel, I don't care.
I do not have anyone close to me who understands "why" I am meditating and (according to one friend) reading all these crazy books, so this forum is all I have for an outlet in regards to meditation.
Thank you
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Then after awhile (not sure how long) my body lost it's feeling (which usually happens to me) but what happened NEXT was something new...so i don't know if it was my brain playing tricks on me or if it was something else..
Please add your thoughts even if it's..."man, your just crazy"...it would help me out ...
I suddenly saw/witnessed/visualized, whatever, a little light. The light grabbed me I guess, and it felt like I flew straight up in the air...well, not physically, but something because I saw my body there straight down...I got scared and started feeling my breathing again..noticing I was breathing in/out in/out but never came "out of meditation" because I still could not feel my arms, hands,etc...then after a few more moments...many little bright lights actually "picked me up I guess??" and it felt like I was floating again...but this time not scared..just amazed...then after what seemed like a minuted I guess..my door opened and the wife walked in talking and in an instant I felt a rush and my eyes opened and I took a deep breath...as if I just came up from underwater.....I looked at the clock and it was 45min of time but it felt literally like seconds...
I do not understand this...I am not scared at all by it...it was amazing...but I am not sure if I was just day dreaming or something???
Thanks for any and all advice....
B
Anyway the kind of experiences that you are explaining are quite common and there are few threads in this forum itself on the same subject. Lot of people I know have had very vivid experiences which feel so real but they are just mental perceptions. They don't really mean anything and it is best to ignore them by taking your mindfulness back to the breath or just watch them until they eventually pass away
Yes, some of them are really scary. I once heard a Thai forest monk said that when he was doing the walking meditation he experienced that he sunk into the floor. Then he was thrown up in the air some 10 feet and his body exploded into pieces. Now that's scary :eek:
My guess is that you experienced sleep paralysis, perhaps followed by a dream - or a lucid dream. Time does have a strange tendancy to warp in dreams.
I've seen patterns of light in front of my closed eyelids before, though they've never picked me up or carried me away.
It certainly sounds an interesting experience anyway.
After almost two years of sitting I think I'm starting to realize to inherent rewards of an empty mind.
Also, another question, when I site I like to have to blinds slightly open so I can see the grass outside. In my upper periphery, I can also make out cars driving by every once in awhile. Should I close the blinds all the way?
This is what I think too. I learned that it's not a good idea to judge our meditation practice in any way, whether it is positively ("wow, this is a great session I'm having!") or negatively ("damn, this session is sucking hard!") because it can bring more resistance to the practice and disillusionment in case you feel you aren't "progressing" enough.
Exactly! I'll join this thread and try my best to post daily, even if it's just "yeah, I meditated today" or "ummmm..... yeah funny story..."
So I did meditate today for 15 minutes. It was nothing special except for it was the first time that I didn't get startled by my iPod alarm (even though it's set to the very gentle harp sound). Oh and I tried some back exercises before and meditated against the couch. I have terrible posture so I am working on that.
I'm assuming that you don't live near Boston as there are a ton of groups in and around Boston?
No strange experiences since that one!!
Focus has been great and my mindfulness is almost spot on during the day.
I have found if I go consecutive days without meditating the old "anxieties" of life start to creep in a bit.....then I meditate...relax the mind...and bang...all gone....what a feeling.