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well.... I'm going crazy by the looks of it. could use some advice.
I just wanted to post this, maybe get some insight from you guys, 'cause this is starting to worry the hell out of me.
Now I know when you're asleep and dreaming your grip on reality can be somewhat scewed, but to what degree? The reason I'm asking is this:
Ever since I was a kid, I would have these night terrors where I'd be screaming bloody murder in my sleep so loud that I often had my parents running downstairs thinking something happened. one night (when I was 18, I'm 20 now) I actually dreamt I was fighting someone and was yelling really loud and kicked my steryo system right off my wall, destroying it. my mom rushed downstairs and said she thought I was fighting someone that broke into the house.
now, it gets worse. In the past few months I've been actually waking up at 4:00 in the morning (or so) and mixing up dreams with reality. probably about 4 nights a week I've been waking up thinking somebody's in my room, sometimes even seeing them because my brain mixes up what I'm dreaming and what I'm seeing. so of course, I'd yell like hell and scramble to get my lights on, to find nobody.
Then, in the past couple weeks when I wake up in the middle of the night, even though the lights are off, I've been thinking one of 2 things. either I see a GIANT spider on in my room (I'm terrified of spiders,), like ones big enough to eat a rat, or a person in my room. as usual, turn on the light, all's well. But, in the past couple weeks I've also been thinking I'm in a totally different and unfamiliar room, though it's the same room every time.
Last night, however, really topped my list and made me worry. at about 5:00 this morning I woke up sure that somebody was in my room. So I turned on my light, but that didn't get rid of them! I never actually saw the person, but mixing up dreams with reality, I didn't have to, I just percieved him as being right there in front of me even though I didn't see a thing. I knew this guy was a threat, so I jumped on him, wrapped my quilt around him, and spent about 5 minutes beating the living sh*t out of the intruder wrapped in my blanket, and that's all I remember. when I woke up the next morning I was sleeping under a different blanket and there was a pillow beside my bed wrapped up in my quilt, obviously the "intruder". so unless a pillow broke into my house to kill me, this is kinda worrysome.
what do you think?
Now I know when you're asleep and dreaming your grip on reality can be somewhat scewed, but to what degree? The reason I'm asking is this:
Ever since I was a kid, I would have these night terrors where I'd be screaming bloody murder in my sleep so loud that I often had my parents running downstairs thinking something happened. one night (when I was 18, I'm 20 now) I actually dreamt I was fighting someone and was yelling really loud and kicked my steryo system right off my wall, destroying it. my mom rushed downstairs and said she thought I was fighting someone that broke into the house.
now, it gets worse. In the past few months I've been actually waking up at 4:00 in the morning (or so) and mixing up dreams with reality. probably about 4 nights a week I've been waking up thinking somebody's in my room, sometimes even seeing them because my brain mixes up what I'm dreaming and what I'm seeing. so of course, I'd yell like hell and scramble to get my lights on, to find nobody.
Then, in the past couple weeks when I wake up in the middle of the night, even though the lights are off, I've been thinking one of 2 things. either I see a GIANT spider on in my room (I'm terrified of spiders,), like ones big enough to eat a rat, or a person in my room. as usual, turn on the light, all's well. But, in the past couple weeks I've also been thinking I'm in a totally different and unfamiliar room, though it's the same room every time.
Last night, however, really topped my list and made me worry. at about 5:00 this morning I woke up sure that somebody was in my room. So I turned on my light, but that didn't get rid of them! I never actually saw the person, but mixing up dreams with reality, I didn't have to, I just percieved him as being right there in front of me even though I didn't see a thing. I knew this guy was a threat, so I jumped on him, wrapped my quilt around him, and spent about 5 minutes beating the living sh*t out of the intruder wrapped in my blanket, and that's all I remember. when I woke up the next morning I was sleeping under a different blanket and there was a pillow beside my bed wrapped up in my quilt, obviously the "intruder". so unless a pillow broke into my house to kill me, this is kinda worrysome.
what do you think?
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Then I heard my mom's voice, saying "Brian? What?"
I woke up. I was in the living room, with a knife in my hand. I was so terrified at what I could have potentially done, I was scared to sleep the next night.
I think it was a combination of sleepwalking and dreaming.
Perhaps you should see a sleep specialist - chronic somnambulism is indeed a medical problem and can be addressed with sleep therapy or perhaps medication.
Secondly, I would try to put logic to it.
You've gone through the intruder thing on multiple occassions. You've done the spider thing a couple of times too! On all occassions, this has turned out to be nothing.
I think I would try to remember - when you awake - that you need to calmly check your surroundings. Check your house before you go to bed to make sure it's secure. Maybe post a piece of on your wall that you can see from the bed that says, "No Intruders Here, Stupid - Just Wake Up".
I've had dreams that were very realistic when I've found I was going through a lot of turmoil in my waking life. I remember having a dream that my ex was punching me in the face again (happened during my marriage) and I got knocked on the floor. I remember kicking my leg out at her - which I did while I was sleeping. Ended up kicking the crap out of a truss in the studio apartment I was living in. Truss turned out to be okay - my shin was a bloody mess.
-bf
I've had similar things happen. Not so violent, though. I've sleep-walked a few times and occasionally I wake up and see people staring at me or other weird visions. I've also seen spiders when taking strong antibiotics. I figure it is a sleeping problem. I don't sleep well, at all - probably part of my fibromyalgia.
For me, it's mostly just freaky, but since your visions have led you to be violent (whereas I'm too chicken to do anything to my visions) I urge you to see a sleep specialist before you or someone else gets hurt.
I could have sworn someone was in bed with me - and the weird thing was, I didn't mind at all!
-bf
but I don't know about the rest, I mean considering I've been having these screaming night terrors since I was a kid, I don't see what could cause that. My families relatively stable and my parents were always really good to me. no traumatic events really. ah well, I probably need to get back on track with my meditation anyway.
I agree.
"Saw" is not a "feel-good" movie to hit the pillow on if you have an overactive imagination.
Cuz... he is coming to get you....
-bf
A change of evening habit may help. Warm night-time drink, selective TV watching or maybe just reading a 'Buddhist' book (as opposed to a thriller or suspense novel!) or quiet meditation. I have found for myself, that affirming a desire for a peaceful night's sleep, a calm rest and a refreshed awakening, can imprint my subconscious and 'programme' it to reject anything stimulating or potentially active and violent. If I form a habit to do this, I find that, progressively over time, I am much more rested in the mornings. It's a type of mild self-hypnosis, if you like. It's not dangerous.
Try the above, but I too, if the situation persists, would consult a specialist.
Remember, ultimately, you are in control of your Mind - all of it - not IT of YOU.
I find that sleeping pills, downers, a couple of brandys or any combination thereof, also help one get to sleep and stay in that state for a good 12 or 16 hours.
-bf
Minty fresh breath wasn't the problem here.
And is that what the taste is? I never liked it but I didn't know it tasted like that whole camel scenario. Thanks for posting that.
-bf
BTW, how did you become so knowledgable in the taste department of Camel Backsides? Is that a class they have at French University?
Ooooooh, you have Noooo idea.... remember that I live in a country that cites frog's legs and snails as among their more famous delicacies....
I can just picture the first person to try snails.... "Hmmm! perhaps they'd be better cooked.....!!"
Dreams can teach us. I would want to find someone with whom to talk around them. Who to look for depends on what you want to learn. Go to a Jungian analyst and learn about the archetypes. Go to a storyteller and learn how to weave them into the stories you tell. Go to a wise elder and learn what the spirits are trying to tell you.
Dreams can just be your mind releasing tension that is being stored in the body that, while we're awake, we don't know how to purge.
-bf