How can I become a good person? (WARNING: VERY unpleasant content)
I was going to tag this onto the othe rpost I started, but I though this might be more appropriate as a new discussion.
How can I become a good person. In this short time I have been listening to the teachings of Buddhism I have to admit that 99% of what Ajahn Brahm speaks of I agree with as an extension of me. Its like it feels like a natural truth.
Yet I do not see myself as a good person by his teachings.
I have lied, I have cheated, I have broken up a marriage in the past and screwed over the woman I loved. I have harboured hatred in my heart and sought to project a false reality on the world and try to force people to see me in that fake image. I have manipulated people to make myself feel better. I have been sexually abused when I was have used others for sex later on in life.
Through this, I am deeply unhappy. 1st noble truth: the world is full of suffering.
I know listening to Dhamma talks online teaches me so much and I feel like my world has already began to change from this, but I know that watching these alone wont uproot these deep set unpleasant characteristics I have lived with. How can I follow the teachings of the Buddha and become enlightened by the truths I have heard and agree with, rather than just hear them?