I struggle with letting go of thoughts...
Ever since I've started meditating, I've become extremely aware of my thoughts, even during daily life. But the issue is that it seems I create even more suffering by recognizing the thoughts (negative, I don't want that, etc.) and despising them. I know that I am not supposed to attach to the thoughts and gently let them go, but I find that extremely difficult to do outside of a meditation scenario. Plus they never end, and they are nearly always negative. The constant bombardment of negativity overwhelms me, I am aware of many of these thoughts, and I get exhausted. I try my best to let them go, but when I do, I receive more in its place. I know this is the nature of the mind, but I can't find a good way to handle these emotions/thoughts.
I don't know if this is a typical struggle of an aspiring meditation student, but sometimes it seems like the awareness of thoughts can actually be detrimental to my ease and well-being. I want to see each thought without being attached to them, but I find it difficult. I want to love and accept myself the way I am, but I can't seem to. Is this part of the journey of exploring your inner self? Do I need more practice, and it will eventually get easier?
I could use guidance from anyone who has insight or has been in a similar situation.