Thank you. (addiction)

My spirit moved inside hearing how you practice loving kindness toward recovering alcoholics. God bless you

tosh, I need some serious help and I really think right now you are the only one who can understand/help. See, now I am the only english or foreign person, I have thai friends but due to my lack of fluency in thai, i cannot explain to them I am pretty messed up, I tried to taper the valium and tonight I took 200MG, drank some beer and smoked some weed. I know how this is so unskillful but I cannot help it. The thais cannot understand the dangers of tapering and I am planning on going to a temple in one week for 3 days to stay as a monk. If I stop valium for 3 days and try to be like a monk, I think it can be dangerous.... But I need to get back on the dharma path, the monks are very wise, but the valium tolerance and danger is a problem. Can you please give me some advice...