Hey there Talisman. If you don't mind my asking, are you transvestite or transgender? I am an old fogey not up on internet abbreviations so I wasn't sure exactly what you were saying in your post. Excuse my lack of knowledge, please. So, do you have friends or family or a group to give you support, now?
remember that one time, long ago, where we were walking and talking while smoking, and looking for words? There was someone you described as "narcissistic". please. help me make that word for what i am. i know not what it is, but long have i searched. help me friend!
Narcissisim literally means love of oneself. Not productive love of oneself but strong attachment and obsession with oneself. It is an emotionally destructive state that masks a inner struggle to assert one's self-image while simaltaneously denying any form of empathy or understanding for others. It is a very difficult delusion to break.