I've been watching quite a few dhamma talks on the internet recently, and have been meditating for a few days now. I agree with a lot of the teachings, but have my personal doubts about others. I'm a little confused with regard to the interpretation of various ideas - as different teachers seem to have different ideas themselves. Sometimes rebirth is viewed in a literal sense, sometimes as a metaphor. I don't want to misunderstand something by mistake.
Finding a teacher or a sangha is not really an option at the moment - but I feel very drawn to the ideas behind Buddhism. I would go as far as to say that I feel embarrassed, as I've never been particularly spiritual before - but I would like to explore this further. Where should I start?