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Sounds like you are I are similar @Kerome - I always feel like I am going to let people down and it causes me anxiety.
Not sure if it's related but, like you, I moved around a lot as a child.
I am getting better though.... slowly finding myself a new, more stable happiness that doesn't rely on the feedback from others.
You might find it worth while to reflect on the Lokavipatti Sutta
Generally charities (well the ones I donate to) don't spend more than 20% on salaries / admin costs. I have no problem with that.
I just don't agree with pestering people who already give.
I was just thinking along similar lines @IronRabbit - it's amazing how many times in a normal day somebody does something nice for us and we hardly notice.
But if someone is rude to us or does the wrong thing, we kick up a fuss and stew on it (sometimes for hours and days).
We're strange creatures......
When I realised emptiness I had a feeling of joy flow through me that I had never experienced before or since. It lasted about 30 seconds.
If that's enlightenment, I'd like to order some more please
Good on you @Kerome.
I have thought along similar lines a bit over the last few years.
But my latest idea is that if I keep working in the (relatively) high paying IT job I have now I cann save more money so retire earlier to spend the rest of my life focusing on my practice for the benefit of all beings.