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ajhayes Veteran

Knock on the sky, listen to the sound.


Northern Michigan
Last Active
Northern Michigan
Languages Spoken
English, some French, some Spanish
  • Re: The peaceful observer

    The dude abides.

  • Weird feeling

    I'm going to ramble a bit, please bear with me.

    I have not felt like I've had a home since 2003, when I left Dongducheon, South Korea. Being there profoundly changed me. It was my first exposure to Buddhism. The culture, people, and food just felt right. Everything resonated with me. Since coming back to the United States, I have felt very unsettled. I don't much care for the American lifestyle, especially with this culture of hate that we are nurturing.

    If I was a single guy with no kids, this would be an easy decision. I would simply move to Dongducheon. However, I am married with 3 young kids and I don't want to disrupt their lives. Especially since my wife really likes where we live.

    I'm feeling stuck in a place that is not my home and I really don't like it. I'm a federal employee, which I am really resenting (given my previous experience as government property in the US Army).

    Apparently this post has gone from ramble to complaining. I apologize for the complaining, I try to not do that. I just really needed to get this out of my system. Thanks for following along.

    Gassho, with gratitude

  • Re: What is your Plan?

    @federica said:

    @ajhayes said:
    I am working toward ordination. As of this morning, I have begun (trying) to live by the 8 precepts, instead of the 5.

    We greatly support and look forward to walking with you on your journey to ordination. We are blessed to have accompanied one "wannabe Bhikkhu" (who finally made it!) along his path; what a wonderful thing it would be to have two on board!! Much Metta and a joyous progress to you!

    Thank you @federica ! I like the title of wannabe bhikku. :) As always, I look forward to learning with and from all of you

  • Re: What is your Plan?

    I am working toward ordination. As of this morning, I have begun (trying) to live by the 8 precepts, instead of the 5.

  • Re: A wish for you

    Thank you. And best wishes to you and yours as well.

    This is one of the finer feel good posts I've encountered. As @David said, you can feel the sincerity.