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My personal anecdote:
I had been very resistant to vegetarianism for a while. Somehow I was convinced that my body needed meat to feel well. I seemed to feel light headed and empty if I wasn't consuming meet for over a couple of days.
But as time went on I just could not justify to myself eating meat in the First World environment that I am finding myself in. The thought of what the animal goes through and me eating the outcome of that started to become more and more sickening. So I started taking longer and longer breaks between eating meat and somehow my body seemed to be ok with that. Looks like I just brainwashed myself into believing otherwise.
Fast forward to today, I hardly ever touch red meat. I eat poultry about once a week during family gatherings. I am still somewhat ok with doing so in social settings when someone else goes into trouble of cooking. I also eat sea critters like fish or shrimp about once a week on my own- somehow I do not feel as much sincere empathy for those. Other than that, I buy, order and cook vegetarian only.
As time goes by, I seem to become more and more averse to eating others. I am contemplating going full veg even at the cost of disappointing some folks: my body seems like it'll be fine with that.
I view teachings regarding rebirth as allegories that describe the flow of psychological changes during this only life that we know. Yes, I can listen to the Tibetan book of the Dead, overlook the otherworldly stuff and still find the imagery helpful to make sense of this present life's mental and emotional turmoil.
I sometimes fall into a rut and desperately look for answers on forums and such, @satcittananda .
But there is no answer out there. Be a lamp onto yourself, Buddha said. There is some deep yearning within you that fuels your search- forget Buddhism for a while and explore that yearning instead, with as open a mind as you can master. Let the chips fall where they may.
I have gone through those periods of doubt many times but so far I have always landed in a Buddhist-y space. One day I might not and if so, that'll be totally fine.
You are free, find your answer, not a "Buddhist" answer.
So during the last precepts ceremony at my Zen center, media was mentioned in the context of the precept about abstaining from intoxicants. That was reassuring for me to hear, as I have struggled greatly with Internet-powered obsessions...
I am coming to the conclusion that the best way for me is to be extremely careful about what I expose myself to online and, indeed, minimize my time there as much as is humanly possible.