(If 'Mindfulness' is the wrong category, please move it with my apologies)
It's been said that approximately 95% of our thoughts are re-runs; so, apparently, it's like network television. However, I had a 'thing' back in November that has played havoc with my experiencing of life. One radical havoc-inducing experience that is specific to this thread is that the number of new thoughts that I've never thought before has grown incredibly. While I'd love to try and give you a number, I'm not going to do that. Let's just go with....at least double the number of new thoughts.
It is, and has been, exhausting. Perhaps we recycle thoughts to save energy - I don't know, but judging from what I've been experiencing, that would make some kind of sense. Perhaps I simply have more energy and mind is using that to create more thoughts...like the one I'm having right now that says, "Oh that would be unfortunate." Anyway, for the first few months I tried to capture each new thought, which was packaged like an insight or revelation, thinking that if it got away, I would be poorer for it. Then I changed tack, deciding that my thinking had changed and such thoughts were always available to me now - I didn't need a collection.
It is...well now, I was going to say that 'it is what it is' but that's not right. It is whatever value I put on it/them. I'm trying diligently not to create a shrine or a statue to the experience, but even that requires intention, effort, and attention. That's the part I'm finding exhausting. If you've gone through something similar, or even if you haven't, any suggestion on how to responsibly 'take a break'?