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I am still around, but I don't do much lurking of buddhist forums anymore, although as you can see all you need to do is call my name three times(like beetlejuice, or bloody mary) and I magically appear
It was a great talk Jayasara.
You are obviously paying for your keep.
I like the 'mind as entertainment' bit.
As you know the cyber laity here have little guidance, apart from our own experiences and the occasional word of wisdom from a passing Bodhi.
Don't be a stranger. We need the scraps ...
Ok then, here are a few more scraps
and playlists :
Dhamma Shorts (usually under 10 min videos) - https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLuD1xfDfsh6y2ZYNJRHQXP7zYxXEBynZw&disable_polymer=true
Q&A excerpts (usually under 10 min videos) - https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLuD1xfDfsh6ysLFs9991MALZbGob07kH2
Full Dhamma Talks : https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLuD1xfDfsh6xz1R-0UuzD-qlSQY_X4MHZ
Cheryl died one night, all alone, with no one holding her hand, no one to comfort her, no one to cry with her.we all die alone... even if there are dozens of people around our bedside.. no one can die with us.. we take that final journey, that final test, by ourselves. Your mind thinks otherwise though, which is causing you guilt, fear, and sadness... this is the nature of our mind full of delusions . You could not "go with her" or "help her pass" so guilt arises... and a feeling of helplessness... and the "what ifs" arise.. I could of done this.. I could of done that.. etc.
All Alone, in a depressing, ugly, nursing home room.
Lately I've been having some strange experiences on waking and while meditating... I posted a little about this before, here:
This has basically instead of being just obstacles what I'm now experiencing are some truly weird things, including some spoken fragments, that seem to tie in with physical sensations. The two coordinate, to the extent that I hear things like "now I untie this bit" and I feel something being manipulated on the sole of my foot.
Also I have had a few experiences of felt sensation deep within and around the body, in a kind of ovoid space sometimes filled with a light tinnitus which I can also hear. Sometimes also deeply below the body or in a kind of transparent space co-located with the head, but without there actually being a head there.
Anyone got any ideas what this is? Am I running into something tantric?
@Kerome I'm not quite sure I can be of help in this, as i've never come close to experiencing anything like this in my own practice. I also don't know much about your tradition and what practices you do.
The only thing I could possibly say, taken with a grain of salt, is that I've heard many respected monastics answer questions related to similar issues, and almost always the answer is basically to observe it, to not get too tied up into it, attached to it, or afraid of it, just to be aware and observe as the phenomenon come and go. It sounds like these are all sensory phenomenon that require detached examination.
I think this is valid advice so long as the phenomenon is not damaging you and you feel comfortable in doing so.
If this is related to Tantric stuff, then best to speak with someone who does tantric practice, as others have related already.