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Identifying with thoughts is like a fish having no idea it’s in water.
Hmmm. It won't type a namaste. So here are two other options...
In second thoughts on my post, I realized the striving in it around achievement. Three months, 9 days...But @lobster you put a claw on the core issue -- which is commitment. I've long danced around commitment. Believed that since I knew monks and could talk the talk I was walking the walk(ing meditation). And then to get lost in the not-so-funhouse of mirrors of substance misuse for a long while. Whoosh. Where did that decade go? It's arrow-fletching time:
Udakañhi nayanti nettikā;
usukārā namayanti tejanaṃ;
dāruṃ namayanti tacchakā;
attānaṃ damayanti paṇḍitā.
Irrigators regulate the rivers;
fletchers straighten the arrow shaft;
carpenters shape the wood;
the wise control themselves
It is not for nothing that the body is the first of the Four Foundations of Mindfulness. It is the easiest, most noticeable place to start to wake out of the narratives and distractions that get us so lost in la-la land. There is such a habit energy around being entranced by those narratives. I guess that's why meditation and mindfulness are described as a practice.