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We need a realistic acknowledgement of what needs healing, motivated by metta. The accusing self can take its accusations too far into self-abuse and self-hatred. Even this can be a perverse form of conceit and self regard. How to bring metta and mindfulness to addressing our unwholesome and unhelpful behaviors without tripping into self-obsession and self-judgment is key.
That would be newbuddhistanicca - or ...
Identifying with thoughts is like a fish having no idea it’s in water.
Hmmm. It won't type a namaste. So here are two other options...
In second thoughts on my post, I realized the striving in it around achievement. Three months, 9 days...But @lobster you put a claw on the core issue -- which is commitment. I've long danced around commitment. Believed that since I knew monks and could talk the talk I was walking the walk(ing meditation). And then to get lost in the not-so-funhouse of mirrors of substance misuse for a long while. Whoosh. Where did that decade go? It's arrow-fletching time:
Udakañhi nayanti nettikā;
usukārā namayanti tejanaṃ;
dāruṃ namayanti tacchakā;
attānaṃ damayanti paṇḍitā.
Irrigators regulate the rivers;
fletchers straighten the arrow shaft;
carpenters shape the wood;
the wise control themselves