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relationships, oh the painful growth!
So it is still really dramatic and painful breaking apart from my boyfriend of the last year. I was reading about our zodiac signs together and it is so true, and in a discussion I looked over I kept on hearing that often intense attraction is because we have a growth opportunity in it. Oh dang growth kinda hurts. I like to think i have a lot of experience (I am the scorpio) because of all the work I have done over the years. Well at least with my counselor and psychiatrist I have had many comments that I have a lot of personal insight. I might as well confess that recently my long term diagnoses of depression was changed to bipolar. There is a good chance that all my kids have it and that would explain some of the screaming fits we have with plants or cell phones flying in the air (I didn't throw them but i did run away from home for 2 days). I can see my illness from the outside however I can also see that despite years of meditation i cannot control it. And now I can see that it really takes a toll on people around me like my boyfriend. But he is also a typical aries and sometimes that just seems selfish and bratty.
So basically I keep on trying to walk away clean but we are tied very close in some ways. I am afraid we have just said too many hurtful things lately. I want to at least make peace and possibly have a friendship. I am not sure we can do that. That takes a lot of work from me but I also have my new insight that my feelings and needs matter to me more than another persons damage.
So basically I keep on trying to walk away clean but we are tied very close in some ways. I am afraid we have just said too many hurtful things lately. I want to at least make peace and possibly have a friendship. I am not sure we can do that. That takes a lot of work from me but I also have my new insight that my feelings and needs matter to me more than another persons damage.
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Relationships come and go. You don't have to be ashamed about what you do or don't have. The only shame comes from treating people poorly or with a lack of respect. You sound very sensitive and creative thinker. I am schizoaffective which is like a mixture of bipolar and schizophrenia. I find the arts very healing. I watercolor paint which is very easy in some ways. Hard to make a very distinct realistic drawing, but the paint is so soft and shows the paper light through that it is easy to make beauty though impossible for realism. Easy to clean up, I just use hobby store cheapest paints and I am pleased with the experience.
I don't know much about the zodiac. I am a taurus, what does that mean?
Watercolors are great, all my kids are artistic to an extreme. My son is the only one still in school and he is in an arts school on a guitar major. Very cool. I work with kids in an afterschool program and I have 3 schools I go to. I love the projects and think they are good for everyone. I used to joke, before I knew my diagnoses, that I did all the things they do in a mental hospital as preventative medicine. So one thing you can try that is wonderful sensory (okay a little childish)is painting with koolaid! Yep, we did it friday. It smells so good. Just mix koolaid mix with just a small amount of water like a couple tablespoons and paint. It even smells after it dries.
Taurus, well my dad is a Taurus. You can be very reliable and very stubborn. Not too talkative in most cases. Look it up, I won't say anyone is just like their zodiac but sometimes you get an insight.