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wow it is late and the photo project has been interesting.
So with my time alone, totally without kids or boyfriend or work, Idecided to work on the storage areas of my home and in particular the photo albums, boxes, piles, etc.
I will admit I started with tears over everything that is past, the house I lost in foreclosure, the graduation party for a degree I have not gotten a job with, how we got rid of more than 50% of everything we owned in the last year and are still going down with more worn out stuff, how I didn't appreciate how well things were all those moments, birthday parties, new years eve for the kids, trips we took. Also finding paperwork and bills I avoided during the worst times, the things that were just too much and I put aside in the final push to be out of the house before it was put on the street. Thinking about the boyfriend I no longer have and how he took over, let me go train for my new job and just moved me. Beyond anything I ever expected, and somehow it didn't have lasting power.
Then somewhere I couldn't keep that pity party up, the pictures of babies laughing, the evidence that my friends I have had for over 20 years came to my dd's senior art show and her 'moving to cali' party. And the fun stuff! The time we actually got her mowhawk up the full 12 inches and put barrets in, the awesome scar tissue my son makes (fake blood too), my middle dd looking like a star for her 8th grade dance, my son with his first mowhawk and unicycle.
I loved so much finding pictures in this random order that I am doing my photo album like that. I have put this off and stressed about 'doing it right'. We are an organic and highly creative family, sewing, cooking, creating music and art and writing all over. Most everything on my walls has been created by us. So the photo albums will be the same. I have a pile for 'look mom I dressed myself' photos, another for rooms we have painted and decorated, another for just beautiful places we have hiked and camped. I am taking notes for an article on this actually.
i don't often post about understanding what all the literature means or what tradition i follow, but I do my best to integrate this in every moment of every day. And someday I hope that will make my odd self a teacher of someone.
I will admit I started with tears over everything that is past, the house I lost in foreclosure, the graduation party for a degree I have not gotten a job with, how we got rid of more than 50% of everything we owned in the last year and are still going down with more worn out stuff, how I didn't appreciate how well things were all those moments, birthday parties, new years eve for the kids, trips we took. Also finding paperwork and bills I avoided during the worst times, the things that were just too much and I put aside in the final push to be out of the house before it was put on the street. Thinking about the boyfriend I no longer have and how he took over, let me go train for my new job and just moved me. Beyond anything I ever expected, and somehow it didn't have lasting power.
Then somewhere I couldn't keep that pity party up, the pictures of babies laughing, the evidence that my friends I have had for over 20 years came to my dd's senior art show and her 'moving to cali' party. And the fun stuff! The time we actually got her mowhawk up the full 12 inches and put barrets in, the awesome scar tissue my son makes (fake blood too), my middle dd looking like a star for her 8th grade dance, my son with his first mowhawk and unicycle.
I loved so much finding pictures in this random order that I am doing my photo album like that. I have put this off and stressed about 'doing it right'. We are an organic and highly creative family, sewing, cooking, creating music and art and writing all over. Most everything on my walls has been created by us. So the photo albums will be the same. I have a pile for 'look mom I dressed myself' photos, another for rooms we have painted and decorated, another for just beautiful places we have hiked and camped. I am taking notes for an article on this actually.
i don't often post about understanding what all the literature means or what tradition i follow, but I do my best to integrate this in every moment of every day. And someday I hope that will make my odd self a teacher of someone.
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