feeling hopeless

Yacababy

Lately I've felt like my life has no point. Like I am worthless. When I was studying Buddhism regularly I felt better but I've been distracted. I'm in a bad relationship. I'm doubting whether life is worth it. I don't know why I am reaching out to a forum I haven't been on in ages. I have no one else really. I am going away to school soon with an eating disorder that I know will get worse. Part of me wishes I could end my life now because I know it's going nowhere but I am too afraid. Sorry this is so heavy. I just feel alone.

Dakini

What does "going away to school" mean? Boarding school? College?

a) get out of the bad relationship if it can't be fixed. Dropping baggage will help you feel better.
b) If you're going to college, check out the counseling center. Free therapy. It's the only time in your life you'll get counseling for free. They're set up to help students like you. Hang in there.

Yacababy

yea I am going to away to college. I feel stuck in this relationship because it's been on and off for two years and I've always ended it. now I feel so guilty I feel like I lack that option.

Dakini

Have you tried talking it out? Guilt isn't a good reason to do or not do something. And will the concern be moot anyway, when you leave town to go to school? Remember, compassion is about compassion for self, as well as others. If it's not a healthy relationship for you, you need to take care of yourself.

People can manipulate you with guilt, you know. Don't let it happen to you.

Yacababy

yea but he doesn't understand. he believes that true love conquers all. even the things he does and the fact that he had no future. we were going to try and make it work long distance but he can even get a job I don't see him visiting me much... I'm worried he will hurt himself. I will try to solve it. thank you for talking to me.

Dakini

This may be difficult to realize, but his decision to hurt himself is his own. True love doesn't conquer all, you're right. Good luck,Yac. Life isn't hopeless, you have your whole life ahead of you. "This, too, shall pass" is a good mantra.

Do look into the counseling ctr when you get to college, though, for that eating disorder. College can be a difficult adjustment for people, especially if they've never been away from home. Use the counseling ctr for support. Let us know how you are from time to time, ok?

Yacababy

okay. thanks a bunch

Cinorjer

Yacababy, every life has its ups and downs, and sounds like right now you're at the bottom. A relationship ending, the stress of moving and starting a new life, and feeling isolated on top of that. It sucks right now.

But it gets better. Unless your brain is stuck with a chronic depression that is more chemical than anything else, our minds struggle for balance and wounds heal. You'll find new friends, if you let yourself. Join a club at school. Try something new, maybe take a class in something like pottery or art just to see what happens. And if you find yourself stuck in depression, seek counciling. There are places at every college now that know how to help.

Can you promise to drop in after a while and let us know how you're doing?

DaltheJigsaw

Definitely let us know how you are doing.
I don't have much suggestions, as my suggestions are different from what you need to do. However, I can definitely recommend that you speak to someone!

Yacababy

I promise. thanks guys I feel better just reading your replies.