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Changes in the last two weeks
Hello,
On my way to work this morning I came to a realization.
Just in the last 2 weeks, practicing anapanasati (almost daily :P) and reflecting on every feeling I have, I noticed a change that I have not felt in a VERY long time.
Now, I think it's different for every person on how long certain changes take to take effect, but as an example from my life, prior to stumbling across buddhism I would wake up in the morning dreading going to work (I am presently at a pretty crappy job, but I am going back to my old job in another week at the school district). Now, when I woke up this morning I realized that I felt an excitment that I could not wait for the day to begin. Even though I knew I would have to cope with certain things at work, I was still excited all the same.
I was excited for the fact of what I would experience today. Like I said before that I have not had a feeling like this in over four years.
Maybe I am getting ahead of myself, but I associate the feeling with a snowball rolling down a mountain, at first it starts slow and gradually, the snowball grows and begins to accrue speed and weight. Maybe this is a bad analogy, but this is how I feel. My snowball is starting to pick up speed and I can't wait to experience whats coming next, whether negative or positive, because I know it will only re-enforce my beliefs and allow me to reflect on different situations and experience new things from a different viewpoint.
In this instance, the grass is much greener on the other side
Thanks for listening to my blabbing, I had to share this
sean
On my way to work this morning I came to a realization.
Just in the last 2 weeks, practicing anapanasati (almost daily :P) and reflecting on every feeling I have, I noticed a change that I have not felt in a VERY long time.
Now, I think it's different for every person on how long certain changes take to take effect, but as an example from my life, prior to stumbling across buddhism I would wake up in the morning dreading going to work (I am presently at a pretty crappy job, but I am going back to my old job in another week at the school district). Now, when I woke up this morning I realized that I felt an excitment that I could not wait for the day to begin. Even though I knew I would have to cope with certain things at work, I was still excited all the same.
I was excited for the fact of what I would experience today. Like I said before that I have not had a feeling like this in over four years.
Maybe I am getting ahead of myself, but I associate the feeling with a snowball rolling down a mountain, at first it starts slow and gradually, the snowball grows and begins to accrue speed and weight. Maybe this is a bad analogy, but this is how I feel. My snowball is starting to pick up speed and I can't wait to experience whats coming next, whether negative or positive, because I know it will only re-enforce my beliefs and allow me to reflect on different situations and experience new things from a different viewpoint.
In this instance, the grass is much greener on the other side
Thanks for listening to my blabbing, I had to share this
sean
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This is exactly how I've been feeling for the past few months since stumbling onto this wonderful path. Thanks for sharing.
However: this, too, shall pass. And when it does, keep up practice!
By that time, perhaps you'll have realized--no matter what you do, you're practicing...
The "mistake" is to become attached to the feeling of well-being and the triumph of progress... this too, is infact a hindrance, even though it is commendable...
For my part, just when I used to think I was really breezin', my friend Life, with the warped sense of humour it has, would gaily fling the banana skin at my feet... I'd catch it, every time!
Moral:
Avoid banana skins....
So even though these are great feelings, in buddhism we should not get attached to them, even if they are positive?
Brigid
regards,
Xray.
Somebody's in a bad mood today...:hrm:
Are you disagreeing or what?
Or are you being funny?
Brigid
Mike
yes i was trying to be funny pretending to be agitated etc.:banghead:
forget it.:crazy:
that's it, I'm taking my bat and ball and going home
-great tea site!
Mike