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Expose your ego HERE!
mindatrisk
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As it says on the tin and as you wish to use it... expose your ego here. 
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I posted something here this morning that at the time I completely overlooked, but then a few minutes after posting the familiar chirping of my ego rang out through my mind... y'know, the inner arguments etc. and I realised that what i'd post had been born of my ego, and not out of love.
I don't mind that as such, I can't be perfect, and it's good to be able to have experiences and be aware of the mistakes. What I posted is this...
Ooooh check out the arrogant closed mindedness on the lovely Buddhists! I said from the start that it mattered not what the information was but what it's impact upon you was. You are all here going to have a very, very difficult time proving anything that you believe, think or feel as true. EVERYTHING you think is at best a hopeful, educated guess. You cannot be certain of anything. You believe it because it made an impact on you... it helped you... it resonated with you... it made you think in different ways. Such arrogance! Do you not see that there are many people out there who would consider Buddhism to be the same outlandish claptrap? I thought I was amongst more reasoned, considerate people here, not mocking, patronising children. Hmmmmm.
If anyone read this and was upset or took offense then please accept my apologies. The only way that I can see fit to make amends to yourselves is to say sorry, and the only way I can see to make amends to myself is to have the humility to acknowledge my mistake and expose my ego workings - not out of public flogging, but because humiliation is the best antidote to its ignorance.
I know i've spoken a lot about living a life of loving-kindness and i'm fully aware that to speak so loudly about it requires I walk it impeccably... on this occasion I haven't done so, and I'll be thinking long and hard about what steps I need to take to correct this. As ever, I accept myself and love myself regardless, to beat myself up would be to to put the cherry on the top for the ego, but, again, for anyone I upset please know that I am sorry. In Lak Ech.
beyond hope and fear. what ego is there beyond the convention we assert?
and I also have never told a lie..
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Well I don't know what I can expose.. I notice attention seeking with me. If I go to check my e-mail, I like to have a message from a friend. If I post pics of my art or a thread in some forums then I desire responses.
Female attention screws me up to the maximum.
I beat my head against the wall with certain actions and then proceed to dig a hole deeper and deeper until I've found a place where I'm "comfortable" with calling it bottom.. then I'm willing to stop my neurotic behavior and sometimes it is only until I "feel" "better" and then I go right back to it.
Fear is present in my life.
Sometimes I don't want to wake up the next day, my thoughts work along the lines of I hope I don't want to wake up and I want this shit to be over with.
I accept the neurotic and good qualities I am currently able to see in myself.
I havent felt that I didn't want to wake up for a little while, that is a beautiful thing. I'm working on developing my understanding of reality and it helps me to want to remain.
When I reflect on all the hell I've put myself through, the thought of another being feeling that way or "better" or "worse" is unbearable. I truly don't want any being to suffer.
I am grateful that I have to maintain my own actions though and not everybody elses.
I'm glad to know limitations that I have in what I can and can't do to be of benefit and honestly there isn't much I can do to be of benefit because I'm what they call a very limited being.
Beneath the shallow depth of my neurotic tendencies I love all.
Making a public or private acknowledgment of neuroses doesn't mean a damn thing if the person speaking it isn't living it.
If I steal your things then say sorry.. then do it again.. sorry.. do it again.. sorry.
I said I was sorry! Jeez.. I don't understand what the problem is.
Yarr Matey.
12 Steps led me to Buddhism! They go so hand in hand it is beautiful. The steps are an amazing set of tools. I find that one needs more than just that though.. Buddhism is perfection.. goes much deeper than the steps are able.
That is the true beauty of the steps imo is that they lead an individual to their own understanding of what works for them to better themselves.
the 4 Noble Truths
the 8-fold Path
and Karma, defined as actions having consequence.
10 = mindfulness
11 = prayer and meditation
12 = ethical lifestyle and compassion for others
It is a 'Buddhist practise'.
I used to LOVE reading about aliens and UFOs, it wasn't so much whether it was true or not, it was just the fact that it allowed me a much wider perspective of my life and existence - it humbled me, and it awoke me to the trivial life pursuits that I engaged in at the time, it made playing Playstation and smoking weed seem silly and futile. Reading those things was essential to my growth - not because it was real, but because it gave me something that I could make useful for my own growth... Much of which, I would reckon, is what Buddhist texts are about.
We are all a work in progress and I have often found my talk bigger than my walk but we can work on that and it sounds like you're going in the right direction (not that I'm one to give directions).
Let's face it, Buddhism is diverse in belief but we can trancend our sectrarian differences if we have a mind for it.
I'd imagine we all take refuge in the 4 noble truths and the 8-fold path. The differences seem to lie in the expounding of the path and sometimes that can be frustrating but it is also a chance for us to see from other perspectives.
I have no problem making mistakes at all... in fact, I love making mistakes! My post in the other thread was a mistake. The intent was playful, but the execution may have betrayed some deeper resentments there, and it didn't end up reading as playful as i'd believed I was aiming for. So be it! I love and celebrate that I can apologise and be forgiven and experience that humility. At this stage in my path it is highly unlikely that I will do anything that will seriously harm someone, so I feel quite comfortable making mistakes because I feel that I can make (and live) my amends and learn a lot from it. So, thank you for your post. Please always share your views with me, your directions will always be welcomed here.