About a month ago, a regular member of my Sanga that meets on Sunday mornings announced that there was going to be a Vipanassa retreat over New Year's weekend. Sounded interesting to me, so I took one of the fliers he had, and looked up the website for the group that was sponsering the retreat. So, after giving it some thought and making sure I could get New Year's Eve off (New Year's Day is a paid holiday anyway) I filled out the registration form and sent in my payment.
The retreat lasted from Friday evening until Tuesday noon. I don't know what I expected, but I did not know what I was getting into. I had slight misgivings on the first day when I told someone it was my first retreat, and they said this one was a bit long for a first timer. For one thing, it was a silent retreat. I didn't mind the silence, but what made it really strange was the minimal contact we had with each other (There were about 20 participants.) The basic rules of edequate were to be silent and stay out of each other's way--no eye contact either (not that this was enforsed or anything, but everyone pretty much abided by it.) So pretty much we just stood back and gave each other lots of space.
From Saturday to Monday this was the schedule:
6:30 am: Wake Up
7:00 am: Sitting Meditation (We all meditated in one big room upstairs in the building I was sleeping in.)
8:00 am: Breakfast (The food was excellent.)
9:30 am: Teaching and Sitting Meditation
10:30 am: Walking Meditation
11:00 am: Sitting Meditation
2:00 pm: Sitting Meditation
2:45: Walking Meditation
7:00: Sitting Meditation
7:45: Walking Meditation
8:15: Sitting Meditation
8:45: Dharma Talk
Now, beings as I've never been in a sitting meditation longer than about 30 minutes, this schedule was quite a challenge for me. In fact, Saturday was absolutely miserable! :eekblue: I could never sit still for 45 minutes at a time and really got a lot of experimenting done with meditation postures. I'm quite certain I made a lot of noise. And on top of that, I had a cold with a runny nose, so I was needing to blow my nose about every 10 minutes at least. I think in every single sit I spent probably the last 10 minutes just wondering when she was finally going to ring that bell. By the end of the day I would be totally spend and irritated, but then there would finally be the Dharma talk at the end, and that would inspire me with enough courage to face the next 7:00 am sit.
Fortunately things improved a bit after the first full day. To the very end of the retreat I still could not sit still a whole 45 minutes, but I did start sitting still for longer periods of time, learned a few sitting postures that were tolerable to me for long periods and learned how to meditate in a chair from time to time. On Monday I was able to maintain a meditative frame of mind though the first two sets of sitting and walking sessions before dinner, though my concentration was pretty well spent by the third sit in a row. I learned a lot of resisting the craving to move or just give up and go back to my room, and I learned a bit about where my mind goes when it does start to wander. I also learned a lot about perception. There was a woman in the meditiation room that I'd imagined looked at me crossly because I was making too much noise. Because I did tend to shuffle around quite a bit--especially on Saturday. But this morning after the closing when everyone started talking again she was just as talkative and friendly towards me as anyone else. It's amazing how your mind can convince you that you know what is going on inside someone else's mind. I told this to the teacher at the retreat when I had an interview with her, and she told me of a person at some other retreat who had become sure that one of the other meditators was in love with her. :tongue2:
Like one of the Sangha members I hitched a ride with to go the retreat said (He'd been to summer retreats at the same place as well): The difference between the summer and the winter retreats is that the summer retreats and hot, painful and, boring but but the winter retreats and cold, painful, and boring. But he goes every New Year's and at other times as well. So he can't think it's all that bad.
It was quite the experience. Maybe next year I'll try it again.