I originally intended to make this introductory post in the introducing new members thread, until I saw that it contained over 114 pages of introductions. Yikes. I prefer to guage other's reactions to my introduction, so I hope the moderators won't mind.
Hello. My username is
Thought Of Thought, which I feel expresses succinctly my buddhist inclinations. Living as I am in South Texas, there are not very many buddhist sects here, but I prefer to carry on without any direct teacher any way, though I admit a teacher would be helpful.
I am 19 years old, and will turn 20 this year on September 1st, and am starting my junior year in college this fall. The picture looks bleak, however... I'm not sure what I want to do with my life. In fact, there is only one goal I am currently setting my sights on, and it's not guaranteed to make me much in living wages.
I am currently designing an artificially constructed language; I have phonological rules and a basic grammar, and now just need to flesh out the grammar in depth, build up a lexicon, and work on semantics. It is my dream to write a complete encyclopedia of the con-people who will speak this con-language, detailing their con-culture, cities, history, and ideas to a T. And it will all be written in the language!
Eventually, I will self-publish the book. I don't have any high hopes for sales. But it is a life-long dream of mine. Something I can contribute to the world for when I am gone.
As to my buddhist inclincations, I want to achieve full enlightenment, in the decidedly non-zen sense. I have... been sidetracked as of late. But I feel I am now stepping onto the right path. It will not be an easy journey. I am wracked with uncertainty and doubt as to whether I will succeed. But it is an aspiration I am willing to undertake, to my ultimate demise, if that is where it leads me.
Technically, I am a brown muchacho. But in reality, I am incredibly anglicised and don't identify with Mexican culture at all. Well, maybe slightly. I enjoy new year's menudo with prickly pear. I'm capable of being moved to tears by the balladio de la gaucho. I can dance. But I play D&D, love british literature, and want to learn german instead of Spanish. Like I said, I'm a weird one.
So. That's my introduction. I feel like I'll get along with you guys just fine. And I'm sure I'll get answers to my questions. Thanks for having me here,
--Thought Of Thought
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P.S. I like your avatar.
T of T.
Good lord, what 19 year old halfway through college does? :tonguec:
I think you're doing just fine.
Palzang