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the major problem..
Guys
I want some help on this, because my mind isn't sharp enough to do it myself.
I have studied buddhism for many years, I know what there is to know.
I have had breakthroughs and I have seen enlightenment.
I have a big problem, though. I am addicted to samsara.
It's as simple as a drug addiction , the barrier between me and nirvana.
My understanding is so complete, that it is unforgivable that i continue to indulge in samsara...i understand why buddha said something like " if i was a killer i'd be the most terrible killer"
so this is where i am on the path.....im no stranger to addiction, it grabbed me at a young age, alcohol, drugs, pleasure.....
Then i learned what HE was saying. I figured it out deeply..and for a long time..
but how do we deal with this...
its not fair, we are raised into samsara...everyone i ever knew ..and even now,... tell me basically, "you have to be a player in samsara.."
they are outside of buddhas teachings obviously, but its hard -the entire world telling u to be something thats wrong...
I want some help on this, because my mind isn't sharp enough to do it myself.
I have studied buddhism for many years, I know what there is to know.
I have had breakthroughs and I have seen enlightenment.
I have a big problem, though. I am addicted to samsara.
It's as simple as a drug addiction , the barrier between me and nirvana.
My understanding is so complete, that it is unforgivable that i continue to indulge in samsara...i understand why buddha said something like " if i was a killer i'd be the most terrible killer"
so this is where i am on the path.....im no stranger to addiction, it grabbed me at a young age, alcohol, drugs, pleasure.....
Then i learned what HE was saying. I figured it out deeply..and for a long time..
but how do we deal with this...
its not fair, we are raised into samsara...everyone i ever knew ..and even now,... tell me basically, "you have to be a player in samsara.."
they are outside of buddhas teachings obviously, but its hard -the entire world telling u to be something thats wrong...
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You have taken the first step: you have recognised your addiction and that it makes your life unmanageable. Now you may want to consider the method of the Twelve Steps, alongside your regular daily practice. Don't expect miracles - you will then be pleasantly surprised when they happen.
Good luck.
Palzang
What I'm deciding to do is take more time for zazen, I need to really soak in it. I think that's part of my problem is that I don't reinforce and apply the truths that are revealed to me. I'm really like a dull knife or a rippling pond right now...gotta sharpen up and still the waters..i've got to be serious now :eek: