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About me and my Western Mind.
Afternoon and Blessings,
My Name Is Wayne and I am 39 years old and live in Washington State. I have 4 kids and an amazing wife.
I have been a dabbler of Buddhism for almost 4 years. I have yet to take refuge and just don't feel I am getting a hold of it. I know the story of Siddhartha. I have read the 4 Noble truths and have listened to teachings, read teachings on it and the eightfold path. I am currently trying to work through the LAM RIM.
I get reincarnation and karma. I understand their is suffering and that there is a way out of suffering. I am always returning to the study of these things. But, most days I just don't feel connected to the teachings. I feel like there is something missing. I have the puzzle in front of me but important pieces are missing.
Does any of this make sense. I am drawn to Buddhism and at times feel it is liking coming home. even thou parts seem to be missing and every time I seek out those missing parts. It feels like I get close while just shy of getting it.
I have always been drawn to spiritual things since I can remember. I grew up in a christian home, went thru a christian college and later looked into other religions, spiritual beliefs.(Taoist, Paganism in various forms, Judaism, and today I sorta say: "I am a non-labelist" as I feel labels only serve to divide us. But, of all the areas I have studied Buddhism - seems most comfortable and at home.
I wanted to add that while I have not officially taken refuge and I do not have a guru I have sought to take refuge with - I have accepted that Buddhism will bring me closer to being awakened. And maybe not having committed to taking refuge in the three gems has brought me this disconnect I feel with it.
My Name Is Wayne and I am 39 years old and live in Washington State. I have 4 kids and an amazing wife.
I have been a dabbler of Buddhism for almost 4 years. I have yet to take refuge and just don't feel I am getting a hold of it. I know the story of Siddhartha. I have read the 4 Noble truths and have listened to teachings, read teachings on it and the eightfold path. I am currently trying to work through the LAM RIM.
I get reincarnation and karma. I understand their is suffering and that there is a way out of suffering. I am always returning to the study of these things. But, most days I just don't feel connected to the teachings. I feel like there is something missing. I have the puzzle in front of me but important pieces are missing.
Does any of this make sense. I am drawn to Buddhism and at times feel it is liking coming home. even thou parts seem to be missing and every time I seek out those missing parts. It feels like I get close while just shy of getting it.
I have always been drawn to spiritual things since I can remember. I grew up in a christian home, went thru a christian college and later looked into other religions, spiritual beliefs.(Taoist, Paganism in various forms, Judaism, and today I sorta say: "I am a non-labelist" as I feel labels only serve to divide us. But, of all the areas I have studied Buddhism - seems most comfortable and at home.
I wanted to add that while I have not officially taken refuge and I do not have a guru I have sought to take refuge with - I have accepted that Buddhism will bring me closer to being awakened. And maybe not having committed to taking refuge in the three gems has brought me this disconnect I feel with it.
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Welcome to the site. It's lovely to meet you.
I found your post intriguing, in that you say you are disconnected from Buddhism and have a Western mind yet I noticed you evangelising Tibetan Buddhism and Tibetan belief systems on other forums.
What are you looking for?
For example, I feel strongly connected to Buddhism or gratitude because I feel have gained tangible benefits from Buddhism.
So what tangible irreplaceable benefits have you gained from Buddhism? Maybe asking this question can help.
Regards
DDhatu