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an update, gratitude, and a well wish
I just really have a desire to post this.
I know some of you know my story, and others I'm sure don't but I'll try to bring you up to spead without using to many words.
When I started posting here I had just started down my buddhist path. I think my first post was also the day I sat for the first time. Some of you, I know, always post on my threads and I have had some pm conversations with people here as well. I would like to think that you have watched how I have changed.
From my perspective though, I have changed more then anyone here would be able to see.
My meditations, readings, and the talks I have gotten to listen to have changed my life forever. Yesterday, without seeking it, a moment arose in my sitting that smacked me in the face. It was my first time seeing how this path I chose has really changed me.
I have released from my case of the christmas wants. It never even came up. Anytime I slow down to look around my life I feel almost moved to tears. I have been saying the past few days both outloud and in my mind how lucky I am for this and that. I really think that is my personal way of realizing gratiude. I didn't see this coming, and I have sat and observed my mind, and I am convinced that gratitude is underlying all of our other thoughts. As my cravings melt away my gratitude becomes exposed.
Just like the story of the clay Buddah I read, where a golden Buddah was covered by clay to keep it safe in war time but then forgotten that it was simply covered by clay. My mindfullness has enabled me to remove craving and want to expose the gratitude under it all.
I am almost in tears (ok so I am in tears) about this. I just feel like my entire world is a gift. I have a house to shelter me from cold, a loving wife, a cute dog, great parents, the whole nine yards. The feeling of true happiness has been here the whole time but craving and want has covered the gold with clay all these years.
(ok I'm ranting)
I have realized, awakened to the realization, that things are only what they are and it's in our interuptions that we assign them emotion values. When I worked past the clouding of my mind caused by cravings and attachments, I really saw that compassion and gratitude are much greater things then I ever knew.
I would like to thank all of those who have helped me thus far, your kindness drew me here and your compassion kept me listening, the wisdom here stuck to me and the dedication inspires me. I feel truly greatful to have such a place to talk with others and live in a life that I may practice. I will always look to those I have made connections with here with a great respect. The path I walk now is going to make a difference in my world, and all the worlds that touch mine.
We can never understand how far just one simple act of compassion will go. Your compassion has changed my life
I know some of you know my story, and others I'm sure don't but I'll try to bring you up to spead without using to many words.
When I started posting here I had just started down my buddhist path. I think my first post was also the day I sat for the first time. Some of you, I know, always post on my threads and I have had some pm conversations with people here as well. I would like to think that you have watched how I have changed.
From my perspective though, I have changed more then anyone here would be able to see.
My meditations, readings, and the talks I have gotten to listen to have changed my life forever. Yesterday, without seeking it, a moment arose in my sitting that smacked me in the face. It was my first time seeing how this path I chose has really changed me.
I have released from my case of the christmas wants. It never even came up. Anytime I slow down to look around my life I feel almost moved to tears. I have been saying the past few days both outloud and in my mind how lucky I am for this and that. I really think that is my personal way of realizing gratiude. I didn't see this coming, and I have sat and observed my mind, and I am convinced that gratitude is underlying all of our other thoughts. As my cravings melt away my gratitude becomes exposed.
Just like the story of the clay Buddah I read, where a golden Buddah was covered by clay to keep it safe in war time but then forgotten that it was simply covered by clay. My mindfullness has enabled me to remove craving and want to expose the gratitude under it all.
I am almost in tears (ok so I am in tears) about this. I just feel like my entire world is a gift. I have a house to shelter me from cold, a loving wife, a cute dog, great parents, the whole nine yards. The feeling of true happiness has been here the whole time but craving and want has covered the gold with clay all these years.
(ok I'm ranting)
I have realized, awakened to the realization, that things are only what they are and it's in our interuptions that we assign them emotion values. When I worked past the clouding of my mind caused by cravings and attachments, I really saw that compassion and gratitude are much greater things then I ever knew.
I would like to thank all of those who have helped me thus far, your kindness drew me here and your compassion kept me listening, the wisdom here stuck to me and the dedication inspires me. I feel truly greatful to have such a place to talk with others and live in a life that I may practice. I will always look to those I have made connections with here with a great respect. The path I walk now is going to make a difference in my world, and all the worlds that touch mine.
We can never understand how far just one simple act of compassion will go. Your compassion has changed my life
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In my 60 years I have known many people following many different paths. But I have only seen personality change with those practicing Buddhism. (This may only mean that I'm not as observant as I wish!)
Release of metta? I don't know what that means, please explain
Maybe outpouring of metta would have been a better term. Loving-kindness, gratitude, that sort of thing.