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A desire experience to share with you,
So here I am, getting up early on my day off from work.
I got a lot of sleep, I had a nice coffee and some breakfast.
But I was thrown into a horrible psychological hell!!
I didn't know what to do with my time. That was the problem.
I paced back and forth trying to figure out what was the appropriate desire to satisfy at this time.. ;
I was going to play a game, or watch a show, or eat something, drink something. I thought of going out, staying in, shopping, getting some alcohol, smoking, making music, listening to music, listening to Dharma talks, meditating, doing laundry... but nothing made me jump out of my chair...you know..
My mind went crazy, like a fish out of water..because I desire all these things regularly..it's what I do, and so when I search for priority one on the list..I couldn't find it today..
It really really really bothered me.
Then I remembered a phrase I heard from a Dharma talk I was watching on the internet the other day: "Tame your mind" it was the third instruction of the buddha, something like that, there was; "do no harm", "do good" and above all else "tame your mind.."
So I told/willed my mind (that desire mind/ego mind)..to let go of me. It did.
It felt great! Because it was like a hand off my throat, literally,
I could breathe easier when I just let go.. Like a hand that was tugging me fiercely in a direction..I gently slapped it aside and I can move easier..
I liken it to a dog pulling his master by his leash.
Who is in control there hmmm? The dog wouldn't listen and if I struggled with it I would lose energy, that "desire" dog is strong...24 years of strength training on it...lol...
so I just dropped the leash..
good luck dog... if you leave, good!
but you wont, so we will train you to be a good boy.:)
I got a lot of sleep, I had a nice coffee and some breakfast.
But I was thrown into a horrible psychological hell!!
I didn't know what to do with my time. That was the problem.
I paced back and forth trying to figure out what was the appropriate desire to satisfy at this time.. ;
I was going to play a game, or watch a show, or eat something, drink something. I thought of going out, staying in, shopping, getting some alcohol, smoking, making music, listening to music, listening to Dharma talks, meditating, doing laundry... but nothing made me jump out of my chair...you know..
My mind went crazy, like a fish out of water..because I desire all these things regularly..it's what I do, and so when I search for priority one on the list..I couldn't find it today..
It really really really bothered me.
Then I remembered a phrase I heard from a Dharma talk I was watching on the internet the other day: "Tame your mind" it was the third instruction of the buddha, something like that, there was; "do no harm", "do good" and above all else "tame your mind.."
So I told/willed my mind (that desire mind/ego mind)..to let go of me. It did.
It felt great! Because it was like a hand off my throat, literally,
I could breathe easier when I just let go.. Like a hand that was tugging me fiercely in a direction..I gently slapped it aside and I can move easier..
I liken it to a dog pulling his master by his leash.
Who is in control there hmmm? The dog wouldn't listen and if I struggled with it I would lose energy, that "desire" dog is strong...24 years of strength training on it...lol...
so I just dropped the leash..
good luck dog... if you leave, good!but you wont, so we will train you to be a good boy.:)
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but then I realized,
that's.... not putting theory into "practice",
getting our hands dirty with a noble truth or a precept or an 8foldpath,
will help us learn faster, and give a very lasting impression..:D