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Hello,
I am interested in hearing some of your stories. Being that most of us here are from North America, and probably weren’t raised in a Buddhist fashion, how did you guys begin your practice? Did you pick up a book? Meet a monk? More importantly tell your story about the first time at a temple, and your subsequent conversion. What did you learn?
Thanks all!
Gunnar
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Can't match that! Here's a bit of my story:
During one lunchtime recess, while in the fourth grade, at Lincoln Elementary School, in Cupertino Calif, a long time ago (1963), I say a little oriental kid being picked on by a couple of school bullies. These guys were shoving this kid around and calling him all kinds of names. Well, to shorten the story, this little kid eventually started throwing these guys around like rag dolls. So, I decided to get to know him and learn his secret.
He and I became really good friends and his family kind of adopted me. His father was descended from a noble samurai family, a martial arts master, and Rinzai Zen priest. Over time he graciously allowed me to train with his sons at his home, which included a lot!!! of Zazen.
I imagine that was the start of the path for this old fool.
I tried out various forms of Christianity, but could never get past the dogma. I could never reconcile my engineer's view of the world with the Protestant Church's idea of God, and there seemed to be all sorts of discrepancies between what's now practiced in the modern Church, and what Jesus reportedly said. (To me) I continue to sporadically attend a church with my wife and kids; there are nuggets of wisdom there, and the kids/wife enjoy it.
Stress became a real problem for me a few years ago; I was walking around with a king-sized knot in my stomach, from a combination of job and family burdens. I found Jon Kabat-Zinn's work on mindfulness, and entered into that world from the secular angle. I began a daily practice of very brief meditation. It seemed to help.
Something very personal and painful happened to me a couple of years back, and I began looking for different ways to understand my suffering. Since then I've become something of a "salad bar" Buddhist. I pick from the Theravada and Mahayana/Zen bowls as needed. Currently meeting with a Thich Nhat Hanh sangha in town, but still really looking for that person that I can identify with as "my teacher". Now trying to meditate between 30 min and an hour a day.
I don't know where this path will take me...but I think perhaps I'm at least pointed in the right direction.
I first tried to read a guided meditation into a tape. The book was by Stephen Levine and was called "A Gradual Awakening". I did the best I could but was hungry for more.
Then I attended some buddhist teachings and soon after took myself off to a ten day Vipassana retreat.
I hadn't sat still for minutes and the program at my first retreat was quite rigorous. Up at five sit for an hour walking meditation for 45 minutes, breakfast in silence, sit walk sit walk one hour or 45 minutes, even eating was done in meditation.
I was just a dharma crybaby in the beginning. Everything hurt and we couldn't even make eye contact with another.
Yet I had a profound shift.
Two of the people who had organized the retreat were killed in an automobile accident during my first retreat. I hadn't cried for my dad's suicide and the flood gates opened and my heart along with it.
It was a rather dramatic introduction to the practice, but I'm a long term drama queen.
Whoops just noticed there are two of these story threads. Hope that's ok.