Okay guys but I warned you!
PMS. For real. Do any of you seem to forget all the peace you've made towards yourself and life and just become a raging b****? Okay that is an exaggeration, haha. That's what used to happen to me, and I even embraced it and had fun with it, like "haha look at how angry I am, oh silly body, totally not my fault," but now I just become irritated more quickly, less positive and friendly. And I guess most of the anger just goes towards myself. I get really intense physical symptoms though too. Cramps, almost always, very painful. I take an advil and lay on the heating pads and take a nap. It ends up being a neat experience of intense pain followed by intense relief and calm, so I don't mind it so much. Anyway, last time I made an effort to stay with the pain and watch it instead of wanting it to go away, and that was kind if interesting. But I also get really tired, and my anxiety increases and I feel scared for no reason, disconnected from reality, well I guess my anxiety symptomns just get worse. Haha I just realized that anxiety pretty much sums up most of my physical symptoms as well, dizziness, loss of appetite, etc, though they of course feed on each other. Sigh. And it's like I know there is nothing to worry about really--this happens every month and it will come and go, "this too shall pass," oh crikey I know it's all about the attitude. I guess that's what I have a hard time with.
Anyway I was wondering how other women relate to hormonal changes. I'd like to make peace with it...but conveniently enough this is the hardest time of the month to do so, lol. But also, I'm starting to see each period as an opportunity for growth rather than just a time of increased suffering.
Men will never understand. Okay, MAYBE if you are enlightened. But only maybe...
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metta
The good thing is that my meditation practice has lessened my reactivity in all facets of life, physical, emotional, mental, spiritual. So I've definitely noticed that in the past three months or so, my symptoms have all started to lessen too, a little bit with each month.
Just keep staying focused. You're doing a LOT of great stuff with trying to accept the pain rather than resist it or react to it. It's frustrating! But it's inevitable, and only the suffering is optional.
p.s. I was diagnosed as having PMDD six months ago and a doctor tried to get me to take a prescription for it. I didn't have the money at the time and did suffer for a few more months before I got into my meditation practice. Now I'm so glad I didn't pay for that expensive script!
Never thought I'd say this, but maybe it's a perk of being a woman instead of a curse...hahahhahaha.
cramps were worse than labor pains...but they only went on the first 36 hours or so and after that it was regular cramps. Some of the things I learned were to take really good care of myself re:this. I cut caffeine about a week before I was due, I learned to basically stay home during the pms time, If I went out, I usually ended up having to make amends to one person or another, I was careful with what I was eating, I painted the pms, found good books, remembered it was only temporary, "this too, shall pass" as we say in 12 step rooms, learned to make a peace with it, I didn't really know about meditation then. But I used similar things I had learned thru my 12 step recovery, a big one was not to take it so seriously... I also learned to use pressure on the "dimples" on my back (not cellulite) I'm one of those people who has a dent on each side of my lower back in the space between my waist and my butt...some of us have them, some don't, unlike cellulite, we don't develop them, we're born with or without, ANYWAY I learned to apply pressure .those spots, sorta like accupressure. It would ease the cramps for awhileand I knind of learned to just flow around the cramps. These things and others helped me and then one day, it was all over and I was done with the pms,the cramps and the whole messy thing.
What an awesome experience you had. I am so happy for you. But ;-D I gotta tell you I'm not volunteering for the cramps to come back so I can use your technique ;-D