Ego Fight

milkmoth

I've been having the yukkiest meditation sessions lately.

It was nice sailing for awhile making friends with myself, cultivating space and silence.

But lately... I have this demon in my head. It's so awful. I know it's my ego coming back for the final battle. I don't like him at all... it's so scary.

I'm getting all these awful pains in my body. They come and go while I'm meditating almost like my ego is fighting me all the way.

I know what happened to Buddha... is this what I can expect too. The final clash of the Titans?

username_5

The final clash? What were you saying about ego? :tonguec:

GuyC

Just turn those arrows into lotus flowers, you'll be alright.

milkmoth

Thanks... I have one sob for an ego.

Then I look at people like my Mom who aren't into any of this at all and are just egoless, beautiful.

I feel so dumb sometimes... but then the crap starts flying.

I think the bastard is waiting for us... for all of us. That Mara clown. Ugh! I can't wait to dissolve that dummyhead!

seeker242

Invite the demon to come and have tea! Then stick your head in his mouth and dare him to try and kill you.:)

milkmoth

Crisis averted.

Thanks. Your antique humor worked.

I mean, you try to get into your meditation, slip past the tumbling blocks but sometimes they still get ya!

I'm going down to see my teacher next week. It's a good 50 miles but it's the closest place I could find. (West Palm Beach).

...think I'll be ok till then. (geez-a-weez)

Floating_Abu

milkmoth wrote: »

Crisis averted.

Thanks. Your antique humor worked.

I mean, you try to get into your meditation, slip past the tumbling blocks but sometimes they still get ya!

I'm going down to see my teacher next week. It's a good 50 miles but it's the closest place I could find. (West Palm Beach).

...think I'll be ok till then. (geez-a-weez)

Good luck with the visit. _/\_

seeker242

milkmoth wrote: »

Crisis averted.

Thanks. Your antique humor worked.

I mean, you try to get into your meditation, slip past the tumbling blocks but sometimes they still get ya!

I'm going down to see my teacher next week. It's a good 50 miles but it's the closest place I could find. (West Palm Beach).

...think I'll be ok till then. (geez-a-weez)

I live 1/2 hour south of West Palm beach What place are you going to?

milkmoth

Thanks Abu!

I go to to the Shamabala Meditation Center. It was started by the renown Chogyam Trungpa.

It was neat, cuz... I read all his books. I was a true fan. Then I ran into the Center which teaches his philosophy and his lineage.

Anyway... they are a wonderful group of people to share time with.

DaltheJigsaw

milkmoth wrote: »

I've been having the yukkiest meditation sessions lately.

It was nice sailing for awhile making friends with myself, cultivating space and silence.

But lately... I have this demon in my head. It's so awful. I know it's my ego coming back for the final battle. I don't like him at all... it's so scary.

I'm getting all these awful pains in my body. They come and go while I'm meditating almost like my ego is fighting me all the way.

I know what happened to Buddha... is this what I can expect too. The final clash of the Titans?

I have the same problem!
How are you getting by with this fight against your ego?
How long do you meditate for?
And how often?

DaltheJigsaw

seeker242 wrote: »

Invite the demon to come and have tea! Then stick your head in his mouth and dare him to try and kill you.:)

Love it!:0