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Some comments appreciated
I am writing here some of the experiences I had in my life to see if anyone can tell what happened to me through their experiences and knowledge.
I have never practiced meditation in my life.
I was a bright person in studies all the way in my life, and during my studies for PhD (in Engineering), I started going into a mental situation, where I tend to feel that everything in this world are connected and bound together, the trees are conscioius, and even the non-live objects are not what they were thought to be. I also tend to feel that everything happenning around us are related.
When I talked about my feelings to a friend, they took me to the university doctor who was a psychatist, and initially he couldn't diagnose for sure what it was, and later they treated me for pibolar disorder, and given antideppressent drugs.
When I take antidepressent drugs, I go back to normal state of mind.
The reason, why I am asking this in this forum is that the thoughts that I had were in agreement with some Buddhist teachings (I believe).
I have never practiced meditation in my life.
I was a bright person in studies all the way in my life, and during my studies for PhD (in Engineering), I started going into a mental situation, where I tend to feel that everything in this world are connected and bound together, the trees are conscioius, and even the non-live objects are not what they were thought to be. I also tend to feel that everything happenning around us are related.
When I talked about my feelings to a friend, they took me to the university doctor who was a psychatist, and initially he couldn't diagnose for sure what it was, and later they treated me for pibolar disorder, and given antideppressent drugs.
When I take antidepressent drugs, I go back to normal state of mind.
The reason, why I am asking this in this forum is that the thoughts that I had were in agreement with some Buddhist teachings (I believe).
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Good luck, I think helpful comments will come underneath.
The important thing its how are you taking that thought...how personal are you seeing that subject.
So yeah... that chain of thoughts led me to wonder if maybe we're an advanced form of bacteria on something too big for us to see.
Like this...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7GDC3u8k02c
'course learning more about chemistry and physics and doing advanced physics at uni threw that line of thinking completely out the window.
Further to what I said earlier, I felt that time and space are only illusions.
I didnt want to say this before as it sounds ridiculous.
There are only minds (conciousness) in this world. There is nothing physical.
When I am in that state of mind, it is obvious to me, but I dont know how to explain it. However when I take medicine and come back to normal state of mind, I have second thoughts as to whether I was correct.
So its like having two people in me.
Since I have not done any meditation in my whole life, I tend to believe this was an illness rather than a higher level of awareness.
Trees are what you see, feel, hear, smell, taste, and think about. But the additional thinking I feel you got attached to in thinking trees are sentient.
I feel that you do have a defect in your brain that interferes with your thinking. Bipolar or schizoaffective probably.
You're not wrong, we made up the concept of time to keep track of the changing nature of everything. 'course it's an illusion (a very helpful one). It's hard for me to see how space is an illusion though.
I find it fascinating that some people who take LSD and other drugs which mess with receptors for some interesting views... which match and have some truth to them. Some drugs cause a complete detachment from the concept of reality (especially SSRIs, ironically enough).
How do these slightly altered brain functions alter perception so much? Who's to say it's wrong?
I don't know... I have a fascination with things that alter receptor activity. I don't know what to make of it.
It's a very sensitive/dangerous topic to discuss with non-professionals.
You should keep this discussion between you and the doctors who are trained and know their stuff. This is beyond Buddhism. I'd be concerned if the doctor was too eager to prescribe something instantly, in high or ever-increasing doses or as a cocktail of drugs. Make sure you talk about what's prescribed.
Good luck with everything.