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Forgive me if this type of question is asked a million times. I'm sure we could search and replace "guitar" with any number of other things to get at the same point.
But that said, there may be some unique issues with this.
My question is this: is playing guitar an "attachment"? Is it "wasted" time? Is this one foot in samsara and one foot in Dharma - with a penalty paid for committing to neither?
I took up guitar later in life, and I love it. I truly do love it with a quiet type of love. I practice/learn/play 1-2 hours daily, trying to actually improve and learn as opposed to merely 'noodling' on it.
In some ways, learning guitar is the only focused thing I've done in years: learning about music, working on getting better, etc. In some ways, it's a template for studying anything (including Buddhism).
But my question is this: is it an "attachment"? is it a waste of time? I do it for "myself" - it feels/sounds good. I don't do it for fame or money or praise... but it is still part of "me", my ego, etc.
Jus' wondering...
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I currently meditate for 30 minutes or so a day. I actually do not find meditation hugely difficult or a chore. But I am "apprehensive" about meditating for longer. I fear "losing myself" in the practice.
And before anyone jumps on me, I get it. I understand that is the "point". And before anyone jumps on me again, I realize "losing myself" is a complex, probably poorly stated, not necessarily what enlightenment is all about kind of thing.
But this is my fundamental "concern" or "fear" about this path. Pursuing kindness, generosity, compassion, etc for others and myself is certainly not easy, but for me, it is far easier than the other half of all this: entering the stream, or enlightenment, or nirvana, or Buddhahood or boddhicitta or whatever you call it.
This causes me apprehension. And thus I worry that I will pay a huge penalty at the end, neither having samsaric achievement nor Dharmic "achievement", but a muddle of both.
See, no jumping:D
He has been given many beautiful clocks and watches in his lifetime, and openly confesses he should rid himself of them....but....he likes them!
(Must say, my attachment to my older acoustic model has lessened........You win some, you lose some)
So, this is a weird thing... I actually have (sort of) transcended guitar lust.
Don't get me wrong, I still walk by the guitar store every day and it's like Buddha facing Mara's daughters... but I actually know that the buzz of getting a new guitar WILL invariably wear off. I've pretty much gotten to this point with possessions. I see the end of the joy of a new toy ahead of time.
That said, what'd you get?!
Heh... even if it IS a real attachment, I decided not to fret about it.
I'd like to say a Gibson, but it was a cheapy from a Hong Kong based company. But it IS nice and shiny!
Valois mentioned rock stardom........I'm now a little bit long in the tooth for that, not so much X Factor as a novelty act on Britain's Got Talent....:buck: