Procrastination

OneLifeForm

is the nation that never was created..

I've been procrastinating quite a bit and I am finding it extremely difficult to break away from the computer.

A TV series has got me hooked; "Breaking Bad".

Moderation has not been my strong suit for a while now.

Drifting in the complacent-sea.





In short, lately I have not been living the way that I want to die.

how

Breaking Bad is an awesomely depressing depiction of cause and effect. An accurate rendering of karmic consequences that makes me feel a little slimy every time I've watched it.

A native friend says that being mesmerized by bright and shiny objects (computer & TV screens) just confirms that my totem animal is a Raven. Yeah, it didn't help me either.

I like the idea of living the way you want to die.

The best posting on procrastination will never be written!

OneLifeForm

how said:

Breaking Bad is an awesomely depressing depiction of cause and effect. An accurate rendering of karmic consequences that makes me feel a little slimy every time I've watched it.

A native friend says that being mesmerized by bright and shiny objects (computer & TV screens) just confirms that my totem animal is a Raven. Yeah, it didn't help me either.

I like the idea of living the way you want to die.

The best posting on procrastination will never be written!

Thank you for your response

Breaking Bad is an extremely well done show.

I think I can relate with feeling "slimy" a bit after watching it but not so much as a result of the content but because I get really hooked and watch new (to me) episode after new episode and don't do anything else.

Then I reflect on how this show is so well done and I'd like to see it all but at the same time I display zero moderation when it comes to watching it so I'm not studying for my state exam that is next Friday.

That is my main problem, I have things that I want to accomplish and losing time watching a show is not really helping me reach my goals.

If, and this is a big if I can, after the exam is over and done with, display moderation with the computer then it really won't be such a big deal.

I've just been on the computer too much, not just watching the show and movies but just diddling around.


I just thought that perhaps the reason I don't feel slimy after watching it is because I used to be a drug addict.

I wanted to see Walt kill Krazy 8 and want to see him continuing to cook up meth and him and Jesse making a lot of money.
I cheer him on, "Forget about your wife and family, cook that meth!!!!"


What is it exactly about watching that show that makes you feel slimy @how?

how

Because of my empathy for Walt's slide into hell. Because of the wake he is leaving behind him. Because I'm not sure at the end of the show if the emotional perfume it leaves me with is worth the watch.
I learned a long time ago that very little is really separate from anything else. You may think that there is "you" on one side of the visual screen and a different world on the otherside but in reality you become the bridge between them with your decision to watch..

OneLifeForm

how said:

Because of my empathy for Walt's slide into hell. Because of the wake he is leaving behind him. Because I'm not sure at the end of the show if the emotional perfume it leaves me with is worth the watch.
I learned a long time ago that very little is really separate from anything else. You may think that there is "you" on one side of the visual screen and a different world on the otherside but in reality you become the bridge between them with your decision to watch..

I have smelled that emotional perfume you type of before.

Not really sure where you're going with my being the bridge and all though.

Strangely typed.. interpret?

Amelia

It's odd, after I watch a good show or movie, I get that perfume you talk about, but in a different way. I find myself adopting mannerisms and speaking style of one or two of the characters. It lasts for about fifteen minutes to an hour and I can't really control it unless I'm watching myself carefully. Sometimes it's cool, like feeling as if I am a different person.

OneLifeForm

Amelia said:

It's odd, after I watch a good show or movie, I get that perfume you talk about, but in a different way. I find myself adopting mannerisms and speaking style of one or two of the characters. It lasts for about fifteen minutes to an hour and I can't really control it unless I'm watching myself carefully. Sometimes it's cool, like feeling as if I am a different person.

My brother and I used to go kung fu after a martial arts movie

how

I didn't mean to be obtuse. The dark imagery presented in "Breaking Bad often unfolds again for me later when meditating. Of all the possible influences that I choose to immerse myself in , I do question why I indulge such a negative one.

OneLifeForm

how said:

I didn't mean to be obtuse. The dark imagery presented in "Breaking Bad often unfolds again for me later when meditating. Of all the possible influences that I choose to immerse myself in , I do question why I indulge such a negative one.

Thank you. Yes I can relate with this very much.

I have this craving at night sometimes where I feel the urge to watch a movie and I am a fan of horror movies especially among any other genre really but the next morning when all of what I saw is replaying through my mind which I don't particularly care for be it a comedy or horror, positive or negative.

I feel that one day I will renounce such forms of entertainment.. wow, if you read this last sentence and then read the title of the thread.. they sure go hand in hand.

@how , most of us were brought up watching such forms of entertainment. As the decades passed, the audience's tolerance for what they deem worthy entertainment increased. More violence, more sex, more action, more suspense.

Breaking Bad is an extremely well done show, it is hard not to get hooked.

Look at it this way, would you have rather watched soap operas instead of Breaking Bad?

I'd think you'd be a tad more screwy if you watched Days of Our Lives (or any other similar sappy opera) religiously

fivebells

OneLifeForm said:

I have things that I want to accomplish and losing time watching a show is not really helping me reach my goals.

If, and this is a big if I can, after the exam is over and done with, display moderation with the computer then it really won't be such a big deal.

I've just been on the computer too much, not just watching the show and movies but just diddling around.

What comes up in your experience if you contemplate measures like turning the internet off at your router, or leaving your computer with a friend until the exam is done?

OneLifeForm

fivebells said:

What comes up in your experience if you contemplate measures like turning the internet off at your router, or leaving your computer with a friend until the exam is done?

Difficulty!

If I have access to it, it is so hard for me to stay away from the computer. If I don't then it isn't a deal at all.

how

I thought a soap was just folks twisting themselves out of shape with conceat & deceit.
Take the worst of relationships, stir in steroids and voila!
Just add some good acting and violence and you have Breaking Bad.

The meditative recall of a soap maybe sad whereas the recall of Breaking Bad feels more like having ringside seats at an emotional cage fighting event. Just because one is more stimulating, doesn't make it any less screwy than the other.

fivebells

OneLifeForm said:

If I have access to it, it is so hard for me to stay away from the computer. If I don't then it isn't a deal at all.

Why not just get rid of it for the duration, then?

OneLifeForm

how said:

I thought a soap was just folks twisting themselves out of shape with conceat & deceit.
Take the worst of relationships, stir in steroids and voila!
Just add some good acting and violence and you have Breaking Bad.

The meditative recall of a soap maybe sad whereas the recall of Breaking Bad feels more like having ringside seats at an emotional cage fighting event. Just because one is more stimulating, doesn't make it any less screwy than the other.

Well I was just being slightly humorous though it doesn't come off through typed word well because soaps are lousy as can be

I smell the perfume from Breaking Bad you smelled as well.

I want to see it through though, no use in going half way and stopping.

OneLifeForm

fivebells said:

OneLifeForm said:

If I have access to it, it is so hard for me to stay away from the computer. If I don't then it isn't a deal at all.

Why not just get rid of it for the duration, then?

I meant, if there was no access.

Like I could not get to wi-fi or anything, then I can deal with it.
Shutting off the router, putting my computer in my closet, doesn't work

I have many days off work before the exam that I'm going to put towards making sure I have the information in mind.

RebeccaS

I found a little trick that has helped me out. When I procrastinate it's usually because I'm feeling overwhelmed by everything that I just... Stall

So what I do is make a list of everything I have to do, and if I do five things from that list then the day is a success. There are a couple of non negotiables on the list (stuff I have to do no matter what) but then I just pick and choose from the rest of the list to make it five things. If I only do five that's awesome, if I do more, that's more awesome but not required of me. I don't really know how, but it makes me feel less overwhelmed and I tend to get six or seven things done. I also have a list of things next to that of the things that I want to do - watch tv, Internet, read, that kind of thing, and do 2 things from that side of the list to create a bit of balance. I do the things I have to do, but make sure I have time for things I want to do as well. Best of both worlds kinda thing.

I also have an app called don't forget the milk. It's a list making app, and anything you don't cross off your list it rolls over to the next day so you don't forget anything, and even prioritizes those things for you. It's not perfect, but it's pretty neat.

I don't know if it will help you at all, but I've found it pretty useful.

lamaramadingdong

Be mindful of taking that first step each day. The rest will follow with momentum.

MaryAnne

"Procrastination" is my middle name.
I do it because I'm basically a mellow, laid-back kind of 'Type B' personality... and well, I'm lazy. There, I said it. I'm Lazy.
But I'm only lazy about certain things. I'm not lazy about personal habits or hygiene, I keep myself and my house clean, my pets fed and cared for, and when my elderly parents need me for something - anything- I'm "Johnnie on the spot". But overall- I operate on a loosely maintained daily routine.

However, if there is any reason whatsoever that I don't feel like doing something I had planned... I just change plans. I wasn't always like that.
This is only possible now because my 3 kids are grown, it's just me and the hubs, and we are both now retired. It's a big perk of retirement, which is good most of the time, but then again retirement is (sometimes) another word for "bored-out-of-my-mind", especially if there is no large bank account and the ability to travel involved in that retirement.

So, Procrastination is my middle name. It's just who I am. Maybe, someday, sooner or later, I will decide to change that about myself. Then again, I'll think about that more another time....