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Todays Little Dhamma
ThailandTom
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I have just gained insight into a little personal dhamma whilst at work, not doing much and thinking about a job my boss needs for tomorrow. I know I should get on with it at home, a simple logo design and then I thought well, he usually comes in around midday so I can do most of the work tomorrow morning. This was quite an unconscious thought, then I observed it and realised what my mind was doing, planning and plotting laziness, putting something off. That is where everything arises and where all actions come from. They start as unconscious thoughts that bubble up to the surface and if not observed and corrected accordingly, they come out as they are thought out as actions. My lesson for today anyway, my little dhamma. Anybody else have an insight today, little or major?
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"in everything that must be done, there is an element of fun. If you find the fun then Snap! the jobs a game.
Oh yes i did just quote Mary Poppins lol
all the best logo designing.
Like the other day, when a particularly odious colleague (who actually isn't very popular with anyone) was winding me up something chronic and I'm just patiently listening to her whiny complaining, when this little voice just trumpeted in my head, and told me "Just be".
So I inwardly smiled and let it all be.
I just want to make it clear, I don't "hear voices" or have a psychological condition as far as I know. But I actually quite welcome these little brief, instant flashes of being in the moment....
I have had a similar issue at work recently with one of the woman there. Our boss is often out and it is me and 2 women who are around my age, she is really bossy and cold at times. She won't say hello to me in the morning most days for example. If I do not understand something she is trying to explain to me she may start shouting and I have had this voice of yours do the same thing, just be. So I smile and get on with what I have to do. I have at one point though lost it and gotten angry at her back, I think it scared her a little because she didn't shout or get angry at me for a while after that.
Mr. Banks: Just a moment, Mary Poppins. What is the meaning of this outrage?
Mary Poppins: I beg your pardon?
Mr. Banks: Will you be good enough to explain all this?
Mary Poppins: First of all, I would like to make one thing quite clear.
Mr. Banks: Yes?
Mary Poppins: I never explain anything.
[exits]
But for me, at work, I struggle very little with being compassionate and tolerant... from all of my lamentations through the past years on here, people should know that my biggest struggle is really to not be a doormat. And last night, I just had the sudden epiphany that my feelings matter too. Typically speaking, a client list should be 'first come, first serve' and I tend to be very strict about this, however, when you are so typically disgusting and offensive that I actually cringe when I see you... I feel like that warrants some attention. I bumped him down the list so far that eventually he just left. It occurred to me last night that although my actions might not be honest, it is, in a way, the workings of karma and I don't feel bad about it. This is really dumb, but it actually felt like an accomplishment.
I know it's kind of like pornography; you know it when you see it. But it's like forest gump, insane is as insane does. There is a whole lot of stigma. I am glad that I have no fear and will gladly share my experience of symptoms. But I don't take it fondly when others say I am insane; that's just stigma. Some people are stupid, but nobody calls them that. Yet people are less sensitive towards the feelings of a person with a chemical imbalance in their brain.
Understanding the mind is an important addition to any medication we take.
Having suffered from chemical imbalance, physical imbalance, emotional imbalance and generalised falling flat on my face from poor balance, other peoples stability or wobbles are not for me to judge or belittle. You hear voices, so did Prophet Mohammed. He founded a religion on his, you probably have more sense . . . in my judgement . . .oops did I wobble yet again . . .
Having been as mad as a fruit bat . . . I have no qualms in promoting greater sanity and clarity . . .
http://www.buddhisma2z.com/content.php?id=191
Each of us is transitory, fragile and . . . without doubt . . . as crazy as it seems . . . Buddha
It is enough to drive one over the edge into a greater awakening . . .
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