My life is changing rapidly and I cannot seem to slow it down. I have developed dyspepsia and was told to get a feeding tube. The muscles in my throat have begun to grow weak. The doctors can not say why, other than it is Neurological.
I have decide not to add a feeding tube and go the thickened/pureed route. Add this to a back disability from 2013. I should greet each day with a "SMILE"...the whole Zen thing. But all Buddhist studies or interactions are on hold...
Things happen beyond my control sometimes that remind me I am Buddhist. Things that would have flipped me out 2 years ago. (Acid flash back stuff). Kinda like, "How can you be in two places at once when you are nowhere at all?"
I have turned my time to collecting records, jazz. Music.
I had enrolled in a class on Buddhism. Stopped.
Truth be told. My depression has taken over, again.
Oh well...It will be cool.