On my practice I remind you my I am adult I live on my own but my parents are my unofficial guardians they have say in my life. I can finish my beginner course which is a actual practice course slightly intermediate I thought it was bare bones. The actual intermediate course is month long and I don’t know if lamrim is in person or online. Mom says since she doesn’t see me as a good teacher good nun because of my disability lamrim retreat and intermediate course is off limits.
At least I have a course to practice and be apart of lineage. I am sad by this but it’s better I be a layperson. And since my inner outer family is Christian they don’t wanna here about my religion but it’s ok to be a Buddhist. She says foscus on this life.
I guess purification and service is my practice for this life. It’s ok I have cats and month long retreat and work doesn’t work. I was hoping to be a nun but I would be a bad teacher. One of the requirements of being a nun is family acceptance which I don’t have