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I should be grateful if you would hold me in your thoughts today. I just popped in here before I go into hospital for cardiac catheterisation. The procedure is relatively routine, and I had it done a dozen years ago - it's just that I go "stir crazy" in hospitals!
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I look forward to the return of your good health, best of luck!
Talk soon. :thumbsup:
Drop me a line if you get too stir crazy recouperating at home.
-bf
Simon:
I will certainly do that. I will be praying and chanting for you.
Adiana :mullet:
Back home now? How are you? Did all go OK? Was everything routine? Were the nurses nice? Did the Doc have a good bedside manner? Did you take your medicine like a good boy? Did your behind hang out of your gown? :thumbsup:
I am, indeed, back home and not too much the worse for the procedure. It has, however, left me with a sense that the other shoe hasn't dropped yet! Three of the remaining four grafts (having 'lost' one ages ago) have simply disappeared. Despite risking renal damage by using large amounts of the radioactive dye, we could not manage to find even one of them. My cardiac circulation is, apparently, being maintained by a single, grafted, artery which is also narrowed just before the graft. Explains the breathlessness and pain. But, despite the 'gold standard' nature of angiography, we shall now have to go for a CT scan to get a clearer picture of the circulation.
So, another wait, another day in hospital, more practising patience ("Nirvana in samsara" as one monk put it to me!) And then there will have to be a conference to review possible ways forward.
It was a bit of a shock when I realised that we couldn't see any of the venous grafts. It is so strange to realise that my body has simply absorbed them. And it did so without so much as a by-your-leave!
Lying absolutely flat and immobile for an hour is really so perfect for meditation, despite 15 minute obs! Our old bonne in France, when I was a child, used to say that insomnia was Our Lady's way of giving us time to say the rosary. Blessed Saint Polyanna, pray for us! (LOL) But it is a wonderful way of passing time and could, one hopes, be of benefit.
Once again, thank you for your thoughts, prayers, chants and posts. They are a real tonic.
You are in my thoughts today.
xx
You have my best wishes.
I don't know if positive and compassionate thoughts help anything more than my mental attitude but I am grateful for them. After all, mind conditions everything else.
Actually, I am hoping to be the first member of this sangha to die. It would be good to be first at something! LOL
Simon! I'm shocked! You're like my dad/grampa/person! Faites-positif!
"Oh, I'm not scared of dying, I just don't want to be there when it happens."
It happens.... to all of us..... some sooner, some later, but nobody's exempt....One of the greatest meditations recommended both by the Buddha and HH the DL is to ponder ones' own death and immortality. And why should it be such a dreadful thing to contemplate?
You are such a sweet young thing. As many would say, you have your whole life ahead of you.....
But think about this.
We all have.
So the trick is to greet each day as a wonderful Miracle, and to live - to treat others - to enJoy and to celebrate each second - as if it might be your last.... This is True Mindfulness, Sweet Sabine. To Live in the Moment. Because Life is precious.
Simon, Flowers or donation.....?
Death isn't a big deal. It is as inevitable as farting. Until I had a friendly relationship with death, I used to get all worried and upset about it, which gave it power over me. Now, it has no such power. My only complaint is that I can't plan because we have little certainty of when it will pitch up!
Fede, my Latin DharmaSister,
Neither. Plant something that will grow.
BTW, I shall probably outlive you all! If only to go on being annoying.
I wouldn't put it past you.....!!
Hear! Hear!
I can totally see Simon doing that just to get on my nerves
-bf
LOL on the farting comment. That's hilarious.
And for the record, I don't find you annoying at all, Simon.
Ok, I almost said that with a straight face.
I never posted the picture of what they 'really' are like...
-bf