hello, i am new here.
i will probably do an intro post sometime soon, but at the moment, i have something on my mind i would rather ask.
short history though: i've been studying nichiren buddhism (mostly through the SGI) for a few years now (3 or 4?), received my gohonzon nearly 2 years ago, have become an unaffiliated nichiren buddhist studying at home and have most recently become interested in tibetan buddhism.
trying to make positive changes in my life as of late. i've gone back to being a vegetarian and this prompted a feeling of disgust at killing insects in my apartment. it's summer now and i've been leaving the windows open, so of course i've had tons of opportunities to catch and release.
i've been doing quite well at this until today... i came home from a long day at work... tired... just about to check my emails when i realize... THERE ARE A MILLION LITTLE BABY SPIDERS ALL OVER MY ENTIRE APARTMENT! apparently, there was a spider's nest somewhere (or several?) that i did not know about.
(yes, i am exaggerating, a little)
so i tried the catch and release method for about 6 spiders, and i almost fell of my chair a few times... had a spider jump on me... and i probably should mention, i know they are small but i am EXTREMELY afraid of spiders. irrationally so. so, in the end, i ended up grabbing the vacuum...
and now i just feel terrible.
i know there is no way to erase the negative karma i have created.. but is there any way i could have avoided this situation? and is there any way i can possibly make up for this? my guess would be that there were at least 30-40 baby spiders. what would you have done? seriously, i know being a buddhist is not easy, but i just ended up sort of freaking out... sigh.
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Buy screens for your windows? Buy a fan instead? Take a cool shower when it gets hot out?
Frankly, I would have grabbed the vacuum too. Having a house completely full of bugs and spiders and insects isn't exactly healthy. Don't get all worked up over it. But I would now try to prevent so many things from getting in the first place in the future. :P
You actually bolted for the border? :P xD
Well they aren't very poisonous apparently. Here we get those brazilian wandering spiders. Uhhh...they are the worst and they jump and threaten you with their long scary legs! :~~(
thank you for the support though guys. i'm just going to have to make sure this never happens again.
lmao. those are usually the type that are completely harmless to you, haha. i'm the opposite btw. i have no idea what type of spiders these were going to be though, they were just tiny and green. really, i didn't quite lose it until my roommate texted me back saying, "kill them! little spiders grow up to be giant spiders!" she's already convinced that all the bugs i let outside just keep coming right back in, lol.
Yeah but they're hairy. :x That's worse.
Hahahahahah. x-D
Here are a few possibly enlightening links for you. Here is an article about consciousness in cockroaches, and here is an article about fruit flies having free will. I've always liked bugs, but these articles gave me a scientific basis for avoiding harming them. It seems that size isn't necessarily an indicator of awareness.
Insects may seem gross or scary, but they are pretty fascinating and not (usually) out to get you!
Hope this helps,
--Vil
Respectfully,
Raven
it's difficult tough, and I don't always know how to deal with this.
Yeah I know what you mean
i'm not really sure what "without resorting to buddhist jargon" means? is the term "karma" the jargon in question? seems an odd question on a buddhist forum.
and in response to your question: i don't know, how could i know what i would face? i just expect that in doing wrong, negative karma will follow. that is to say, a wrong cause gives root to a negative effect... even if that effect is nothing more than my disapproval/disappointment at my actions. i mean, it's not as if i'm EXPECTING to wake up the following morning with 50 spider bites on my body, eye for an eye style.
i just quite simply felt bad and was wondering what other buddhists would have done in this situation.
Ah, that's a much more precise question.
somehow, i had a feeling that a very thought provoking response was coming my way. so, i guess to this i will respond: uhhhhhh... i think i may have to get back to you on this as i'm feeling a little bit like you just blew my mind, haha.
honest answer? i don't want the concept of karma to replace the concept of "sin" that i was brought up with. i don't want to restrain from doing something out of the simple knowledge that it is "wrong", although at times it does seem to be that way. perhaps i had rather thought that if i restrained, eventually, there would be no more restraint. it would just become a natural choice.
is this thinking wrong? i don't know. what is it keeping me from seeing?
I'd be interested to read more about the types of experiments and analysis they actually did with the fly experiment.
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That said, the article about consciousness in cockroaches seems to say nothing more than (paraphrasing) 'well we don't really know if they do or they don't, so why rule it out?' The conclusion that cockroaches have something that resembles a hippocampus (responsible for long-term memory storage and spatial navigation) frankly doesn't surprise me. You mean to say that insects have nerve cells that help them navigate? Come on mannnn... :banghead:
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Easy peasy !
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<rant> Well, memory + free will seems like a good combination for consciousness to me.
--Vil
Or, if they are big enough, you can just pick them up and put them outside :eek::)
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I do not intentionally kill... Butterflies, flies, spiders, three toed sloths, lemurs, red squirrels, budgies, octopuses, Weiner dogs, schnauzers, millipedes, centipedes (though they creep me out), porpoises, guppies, daisies, bats, invasive Asian long horn beetles, dew worms (I move them from the sidewalk when it rains), Hippos, scorpions (though I might), slugs, grubs of all types, flying ants, chickens, bed bugs (though we have an epidemic in Toronto and if they showed up and bit my kid they are toast), barracuda, clown fish, or cats (unless it's someone in that awful musical), mice, rats, tapirs, Indian rhinos, or Blue Heron.
I do kill mosquitoes.
In the case of the fruitfly:
In the case of the cockroach:
And this was another interesting point:
You have a fascinating mixture of animals when you live And the cats from the musical? No one would blame you. As Buddha said, :crazy:
What are you trying to prove against?
Are they conscious of their actions? I don't think so, no. They're like little biological automatons. My dissertation was on housefly behaviour, which meant many hours of watching flies doing their thing. They react to stimuli in much the same way as those little robots you can buy do, those aibo dogs (or whatever they're called) and furbies.
I don't kill them though, not even mosquitoes, as they are sentient animals.
Having said that, I do vacuum up fleas, and remove colonies of mites etc that turn up, simply because to leave them means the situation only gets worse and so instead of killing a few insects now, you end up killing thousands later on.
I do understand the need for pest control in cases of infestations, but I still feel intense sadness for both the insects that are killed (since they're only trying to survive) and the workers who must kill hundreds of thousands of creatures.
you should. What you did was terrible so you should feel terrible.
No, there is no way to erase that karma. Your next life will likely be as a bug that gets eaten by a spider. Enjoy having your insides digested while you are still alive.
First, everything I wrote above was in jest
Honestly when I think about the 5 precepts and consider 'Abstain from killing' it just makes my brain hurt. Taken to an extreme we should feel like murders for getting antibiotics and that is a waste of mental energy and emotional health in my opinion.
I don't think the world really needs more Buddhists who walk around blessing the flies and the ants. I think the world does need more people who take the 'Abstain from killing' precept so seriously that they realize hating someone creates the same emotional|spiritual state as murder. It just lacks the actual outward action. The counter to hate/anger is loving kindness. Instead of 'being radical' with how far down 'the food chain' we practice compassion, perhaps we could just be radical in terms of how much loving kindness we demonstrate toward everyone, even those who do us wrong.
I am pretty sure that any negative karma from vacuuming 100 spiders could be more than offset by responding to someone's irrational anger with compassion toward toward them.
Taken to the extreme we get Jainism. I believe the founder of Jainism was a contemporary of the Buddha's, it's interesting to see the difference between the extreme path of the Jains and the middle path of the Buddha. In a way I admire the Jains for their compassion, but I also see the impracticality of their ways and why the Buddha advised against such extremes.
I kill mosquitoes when they land on me or another person (to protect them from the itching haha) but I will not kill one that is on the wall or just flying around.
As for other insects I kill spiders if they are large, in my room, and especially, near my bed. I also kill these things called "Silverfish bugs" if they're in my room because they scare the hell out of me
http://www.forumgarden.com/forums/attachments/general-chit-chat/13375d1172174410-orrible-tiny-bugs-im-my-house-silverfish.jpg
They're about an inch long, and live up to three years, and lay about 500 eggs at a time. icccckkkkkk
Also, mercy kills. If something is suffering and is to a point where it cannot be saved is it better to kill it to put it out of it's misery or to just let it go naturally?
I feel bad after killing anything, even when I unintentionally step on an ant while walking on the sidewalk. I tend to go out of my way to make sure I can avoid stepping on them, even if it almost makes me trip over my feet...
The only ones that I kill intentionally are insects that cause infestations in the house, etc. (termite, fleas, etc) Try not to kill mosquitoes, but that does not always work out as planned.
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oh and its good for the holidays for mixing with cleaning supplies haha
And what about mercy kills?
Just a few minutes ago I was standing on my front porch observing my 'spider friend' (that's what my daughter and I call everything - whatever it is plus friend at the end). All summer long this little guy has been hanging out in it's web on the porch. It started off as a little guy, but is now noticeably larger. I haven't done anything to harm it or try to get it to move along as it's welcome to remain where it is as far as I am concerned.
This afternoon I noticed a fly was caught in it's web and the spider was having it's way with it. Didn't really mind as that's just how life goes in the insect world.
This evening though was different. The web was positively filled with bug carcasses. The spider was basically experiencing an all you can eat buffet of bug delights. The reason? We were expecting someone so we left the porch light on. All summer long I was unaware that the reason this spider has been so content to remain in this one spot is that it is right under the porch light and at night the light attracts bugs which get caught in the web.
So here is the moral brain twister. I put this out there a little bit tongue in cheek as it's not something that really concerns me one way or another, but it's one of those fun wastes of mental energy.
Since I now *know* that leaving the porch light on results in dozens of insects dying, but also results in a really happy spider, what ought I to do? Do I prefer the dozens of insects or the one spider? Why?
Have fun with this one folks. Again, it's tongue in cheek, but still fodder for those with a little mental energy to burn.
Motion detector light socket. That way, you are not the one turning the light on. Save on energy too.:)
In keeping with the tongue in cheek nature of my previous post, how does this make one different than Tony Soprano?
I understand that intent means everything, but how does 'subcontracting' the actual kill absolve one of responsibility for the death?
Again this is tongue in cheek, I do not wish anyone to get wrapped up in futile mental circles pondering the imponderable.
I'd personally just use a motion detector because all the spider's doing is using what its got and so just do what saves energy my friend :cool: