Dear friends, I hope all are safe and well. Buddhism has always been a soothing balm to my restless nature and mind. But in recent weeks, I've been troubled (or plagued) by a few thoughts...
Buddha Nature. This isn't a topic I've contemplated deeply on, or grasped tightly to, in the past. But recently I seem to have developed a negative sentiment towards it. This 'concept' of Buddha Nature has started to feel like a carrot being dangled in front of me, creating expectations, attachment and resentment. A thought I've been unable to let go of - if 'Buddha Nature is in all of us', but isn't something easily accessible or even achievable in this lifetime, I'd rather not have known about it at all.
Negative karma. This is more of a gripping fear that has arisen - the fear of some strong negative karma from my past that hasn't ripened...yet. And I'm living in a state of anxiety and fear, not knowing when or how it might manifest itself.
If anyone might have any opinions or nuggets of wisdom to offer, I would appreciate it very much. Thank you for reading.