New Year's Resolution...And The Battle For Self Supremacy !
Shoshin
No one in particularNowhere Special Veteran
It would seem for many people towards the end of the year, one of their many selves might decide to make a change, but more often than not, fails to get the consensus of the other selves involved...
When the "If it an't broke don't fix it" self hears of the proposed change, they kick up a real stink, which sets off the doubtful & procrastinator selves, squabbling amongst themselves "No need to start now I'll start later" says the procrastinator self, "What's the point, I won't keep to it " says the doubtful self...Eventually they all have their say and one normally comes out on top....well for a while anyway...
Does this ring a bell ?
This sense of self I think I am, is often in a bind-
when I start doing one thing another thing comes to mind-
I chop and change all day, trying to be better than the rest-
but more often than not I fail miserably, in the concentration test-
Staying focus on the task at hand is not an east thing to do-
when a bundle of selves within, all fight to take control of you!
Which of the many sense of selves is going to be/or would like to be in charge this year ?
Just some food for thought 
Comments
DING! (*)
I would suggest that as you mention we are a multitude of selves. Parents, children, siblings, Buddhists, yogis, runners, crazy, sane . . . and so on, dependent on our situation and changing context.
Unravelling and allowing these selves to quieten their noise is one part of the path. Another part far more relevant in this context, is the arising of inherent useful quality selves:
and so on and on and on . . .
. . . and hopefully 'The Buddha Self' and No self
but for that we need a manifest self . . .
http://www.webpages.uidaho.edu/ngier/HBselves.htm
Here is one of my infinite selves in an itsy-bitsy-red-dress Buddha body . . .
. . . gosh must be that humorous, heretic self - down boy . . . there is a 'good gal'
That awareness will help us stop taking ourselves so seriously.
"Damn, I failed my resolution again!" (Thought- very personal with lots of deep feelings)
With awareness we can then say.
"Hang on, did I think that or did that thought just come up?"
(Second thought - both observed, second one is not personal, you realise the distance between you and thought. Suddenly it doesn't hurt as much"
My goal, to listen to that damn voice in my head with awareness. Stay mindful, stay in charge!
Resolution: If only for the shortest of times, I will try to be still and improve absolutely nothing. Just a little. I can always go back to improving things later: A lifetime's worth of evidence proves my capacity for that ... and its success rate.
I can equate.
Better luck next time, eh...?
I Will...
Be Myself...
You and They...
Are Too!
Next another,
far too bold;
emotions now arise.
Cauldron's boiling over
and here's life's little surprise!
So let's turn the heat down
Sup together in the comfort
That neither you,
nor I,
abide....
The title for supremacy
Was won aeons ago!
This little self,
bound to
virtual wealth,
cannot steal the show.
Resolve to do
for one whole year
a thought?
an act?
just flow...
I'm going to lose weight and be more disciplined with my meditation practise.
I make the same resolutions every year.
They say insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.
I know I know.
No ambitious resolutions, no unrealistic resolutions, no fixed resolutions...
Just a pliable, flexible and woolly idea of the goals I would like to see accomplished this year, and enough room for acceptance at life's presenting me with other alternatives.
When life does not go our way, we learn something we did not know.
I was told that if I did not have a new years resolution, I was a person with no drive; so I stood up to that person and said that henceforth I was resolved to have no drive; and so it has now become a basic universal law that there can be no resolution to my basic problem! FATE or FEAT, they appear to be the same ...\lol/...