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Test Of 'Faith'

FairyFellerFairyFeller Veteran
edited December 2015 in Faith & Religion

I think I've just had my biggest test of 'faith' ever.

I came to Buddhism about three years ago and up until then I would pray or make a deal with god if life became stressful. I would spend hours repeating that deal/prayer and this scenario would happen in every similar situation. I would get no relief from the stress, if anything I'd be more stressed because I'd wonder if had willed enough power to get the outcome I needed.

Fast forward to today - my dog is sick, we're talking one strong cough/sneeze away from death. My dog is the centre of my world, I know her life is going to be shorter than mine and my partners but she loves the world like I do and the love she gives inspires me to love the world even more. 3+ years ago I would be praying and stressing but now I'm just worried, very worried but not stressed. I'm not blaming my past deeds, I'm not blaming some fictional entity etc.

lobsterStingRayEarthninjayagr

Comments

  • NirvanaNirvana aka BUBBA   `     `   South Carolina, USA Veteran

    So nice to hear about the good prognosis.

    lobsteryagrFairyFeller
  • lobsterlobster Crusty Veteran

    Good news.

    Puppy New Year. :3

    ZenshinyagrFairyFeller
  • The powers of 'Puppy Love' <3

    Puppy, Kitty, Birdie, Crittery and Happy new Year! B):)

  • federicafederica Seeker of the clear blue sky... Its better to remain silent and be thought a fool, than to speak out and remove all doubt Moderator

    @FairyFeller said: She had a sewing needle embedded in her lung purely the fault of my partner who is forever leaving them on the sofa but I didn't tell her she was to blame, she knew she'd done it and I'd warned her hundreds of times it was going to happen.

    The vet managed to retrieve it at a cost that would lift a small country out of international debt and she needs 4 days of close monitoring but hopefully she's going to be okay.

    I'm sorry to be antagonist, (and I might be misunderstanding your comment) but I think your GF should be told.
    Otherwise she will continue blissfully unaware of her actions and the consequences - already serious and nearly fatal - could be much worse.
    as to the vet's bill, although I'm sure you would be vociferous in your contradiction, I think she should be at least somewhat responsible.

    However, I don't know if I'm reading your comment correctly.

  • @federica said:

    @FairyFeller said: She had a sewing needle embedded in her lung purely the fault of my partner who is forever leaving them on the sofa but I didn't tell her she was to blame, she knew she'd done it and I'd warned her hundreds of times it was going to happen.

    The vet managed to retrieve it at a cost that would lift a small country out of international debt and she needs 4 days of close monitoring but hopefully she's going to be okay.

    I'm sorry to be antagonist, (and I might be misunderstanding your comment) but I think your GF should be told.
    Otherwise she will continue blissfully unaware of her actions and the consequences - already serious and nearly fatal - could be much worse.
    as to the vet's bill, although I'm sure you would be vociferous in your contradiction, I think she should be at least somewhat responsible.

    However, I don't know if I'm reading your comment correctly.

    She knows she's done it, she's trying to convince herself/me that the dog managed to inhale it but to me the X-rays look like she's laid on it. There's no point in me shouting or getting angry as it'll achieve nothing and she's already emotionally punishing herself.

    yagr
  • federicafederica Seeker of the clear blue sky... Its better to remain silent and be thought a fool, than to speak out and remove all doubt Moderator

    Well if you ever find another needle out of place, be sure to bring her attention to it.

    And while I discount her theory completely, and am far more inclined to believe yours is the more logical and true version, it really doesn't matter which way it got into the dog. Had it not been there, it wouldn't have happened.

    But please don't think I'm attempting to drive a wedge in between you guys.
    If she feels badly and is emotionally punishing herself then you're right, it's enough - hopefully this will be a reminder to her to not leave the darned things lying around.

    yagrWalkerFairyFeller
  • FairyFellerFairyFeller Veteran
    edited January 2016


    I've got my princess home, a little bit tousled and sleepy, a few more scar that'll be hidden by her fur but still as gorgeous. £4,500 is worth every penny.

    There's probably a lesson for me about attachment in this tale somewhere but a life without love is not one I would want to live, my life is certainly richer for having had her in it and let's hope I can manage to hold on to that attachment a little longer.

    WalkerNirvanalobsterTosh
  • NirvanaNirvana aka BUBBA   `     `   South Carolina, USA Veteran
    edited January 2016

    ^ There'd have to be something SERIOUSLY wrong with someone who did not absolutely adore that one.

    Serious.

    FairyFeller

  • Apparently the pleural effusion is back and can't be cured without more major surgery. The specialist vets want to crack her sternum open and fill the chest cavity with water 'to find the leak the same way you would if you were finding a leak in an old tyre'...

    She does like to photobomb...

    Tosh
  • NirvanaNirvana aka BUBBA   `     `   South Carolina, USA Veteran

    Family health problems are always a headache, but insurance helps. I doubt that anybody offers health insurance for non-human animals, though.

    'Tis noble to care for them, though, kind sir!

  • @Nirvana said:
    Family health problems are always a headache, but insurance helps. I doubt that anybody offers health insurance for non-human animals, though.

    Yes they do; in the UK at least.

    Nirvana
  • Glad your dog is okay, FF.

  • BunksBunks Australia Veteran

    @Tosh said:

    @Nirvana said:
    Family health problems are always a headache, but insurance helps. I doubt that anybody offers health insurance for non-human animals, though.

    Yes they do; in the UK at least.

    They do in Australia too.

  • KundoKundo Sydney, Australia Veteran

    @FairyFeller said:

    I've got my princess home, a little bit tousled and sleepy, a few more scar that'll be hidden by her fur but still as gorgeous. £4,500 is worth every penny.

    There's probably a lesson for me about attachment in this tale somewhere but a life without love is not one I would want to live, my life is certainly richer for having had her in it and let's hope I can manage to hold on to that attachment a little longer.

    Oooooh squee she looks exactly my Tess when I was a teenager. And she has a Pound Puppy toy!!!!! I had the exact same one when I was a kid :lol:

    I hope she recovers well and continues her happy life with you.

    _ /\ _

  • KundoKundo Sydney, Australia Veteran

    @Bunks said:
    They do in Australia too.

    Yes my bundle of silliness is insured <3
    _ /\ _

    Bunks
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