I have the sense that by immersing myself in the dhamma I have done myself some good. Reading the teachings of Ajahn Chah, the lectures of Thich Nhat Hanh on YouTube, online retreats. I feel I know quite a lot about Buddhism and about what what the Buddha taught, and have put some of it into practice, gaining some wisdom in the process.
But I feel at an impasse. It is like I could do more of the same, making relatively little improvements. Or I could do something more drastic, such as going looking for wisdom in more unlikely places. I have touched on some of the peaks of Buddhism, eminent teachers reachable from my own home, but after a number of years with them it feels like I am stuck in a rut.
I could turn into a scholar of Buddhism, but I do not think i wish to follow that path. At some point I think I would have to say, this much dhamma is enough. Studying dhamma is like being carried along by a stream, but is that the studying or the dhamma? Have you ever had these reflections on your personal path?