I've had a medication adjustment and finally my mania has crashed. Experiencing fear and shrunken ego/understanding in the presence of people with a bearable unpleasant loss of feeling.
May my shila be free from the stain [of the kleshas],
Completely pure [of any selfish aspiration],
Unbroken [by misconduct]
And faultless [free from the trimandala].
Those seem hard to practice on so to speak for my low self esteem, particularly the last one (for me).