I was experimenting with the question ‘who am I?’ while meditating yesterday. Ramana Maharshi once said,
“The question ‘who am I?’ is not meant to be answered. Instead it dissolves the questioner.”
I was in a receptive state yesterday evening where I was asking the question of everything I could perceive, listened to what came back, and eventually I lost all consciousness of the body. It was like I was in a dark tunnel leading towards a light above, but I couldn’t entirely let go of my shape, and this held me back from proceeding down the tunnel.
Later on was the point at which I understood, I am not the body. The body is more a kind of mental habit, something you get used to. But it has its own energetic life. One of the answers that I got back from asking my question told me that ‘the body energy is the legacy you leave behind when you go’, which I thought was an interesting way of looking at it.
You are not.
"You can not catch hold of it, nor can you get rid of it...In not being able to get it, you get it....When you speak it's silent-When you're silent it speaks."
You cannot catch it and you cannot lose it. You can only be it.