I would like to examine a concept I'm working on with your help. It has to do with the idea of holding in the mind many many data points and reaching a limit at which the data points can no longer be seen individually and a feeling is developed to identify them as a group from that point onward as more data arrives.
An example is the gif below. The gif is a square grid of pixels.
The attached image represents the gif. The link takes you to the gif with movement.
The pixels are each solid colored and the color is randomized and changing. It gives an impression of TV static but in a rainbow-confetti way rather than black and white. There are enough pixels to lead a normal person to feel daunted at the idea of counting an organizing them to determine how many of one or the other, but not so many pixels that the concept of the individual pixel is completely lost on the person. The intent here is to create an awareness of the sense of individuality to each pixel and also skirt the line of when that transforms into feeling of the grouping of pixels. Something switches which causes a development of a feeling due to the inability to contain the individuality of each pixel in the mind.
This is a conceptual interpretation of a moment in a being's emotional state. Many data points contributing to the overall feeling of a being in a moment. A conversation at the store, a poorly timed pivot on a walk, remembering whatever happy or sad event. Contributes to the emotional state. All these data points taking place so rapidly and changing so quickly it is not comprehendable how to observe them all individually. As such, a feeling comes about from the group. Sort of like the pixel gif when I look at it for a bit. All the data points but instead of counting them individually, the feeling of the color emerges.. This can be experienced similarly as one is guided about their day largely by feelings of many many groups of things.
A drop in an ocean, a spec in a desert, a leaf in a forest, a star in the cosmos
The whole ocean, the whole desert, the whole forest, the whole cosmos
A feeling guides me to write this stuff, guides me to examine these things. It feels good to me even if I don't know the purpose. Maybe the doing is the purpose in and of itself. The fruit of the data points. Follow what feels good and wholesome and the outcome is good and wholesome. Which makes more wholesome data points that guide more wholesome doings. Which, if the above is applied, means there's lots of individual data points indicating in that direction and I'm just doing the indicated result. And if they're indicating in that direction, and that makes me feel good and wholesome, does that make me fruit???