What I've learnt from not meditating and breaking precepts is that my life because muddy and the noise my mind generates indoors usually meets its counterpart outdoors.
Reacting, responding, demanding. How unfortunate. I have discovered a secret probably known to all of you, but I find worth sharing nevertheless...
True practice begins when you sit everyday, especially when you do not want to. Following precepts and some guidance is essential too of course. It helps a lot to avoid just sitting and thinking, feeding delusions. ¿"Gendo zen"?
" Gedo zen is an intoxication. It is like alcohol or drugs, transporting you out of your own experience and life into a temporary state of ease."
I really liked this excerpt from the book "Begin Here: Five Styles of Zen" by Ven. Anzan Hoshin roshi Zazen-ji (1989) where these styles are described.
I feel like most Western audiences would probably engage in Zen or Buddhism from the perspective of therapy or even taking it as a science of the mind (Bompu zen). Then perhaps it could advance to a deeper practice. By the way, bompu zen basically is to practice for your the sake of your well-being.
Maybe a taste of bompu zen is the way to go?